Tuesday, April 01, 2014
My natural inclination to be a perfectionist is making maintenance stressful.
I'm told it's normal for a woman's weight to fluctuate with hormones, sodium intake, etc. Having lost and gained 20 pounds and 33 pounds in the past, I am petrified that I will gain back the 90+ pounds I've lost this time. I know this time I did it the "right" way - good nutrition, reducing and tracking food intake, and adding in lots of exercise - but still, the fear is there.
Every time the scale goes up, I panic, thinking this is the beginning of the end. I know that I can expect up to a 5 lb jump for PMS and a 2 lb jump for sodium but still, it makes me panic and go back to 1300 calories until the number comes down. This cycle means I'm still losing weight, albeit slowly.
This drive to be perfect has kept me from increasing my calories to where the doctor and Sparkpeople say I should be. It's stressing me out and causing friction with my loved ones. I'd love to be more relaxed and let myself have a cookie now and then.
How much did the scale vary while you were finding your maintenance calorie range?
How do I let go of the idea that my weight should be at the magic number every day?