Sunday, March 30, 2014
A year ago when I moved to a new city where I knew no one, I knew making friends wouldn't be easy. Almost 9 months later, I still know no one but my co-workers, boyfriend and his family. It's not enough. I need more.
This town has makes me feel so lonely. I go to the Y and I don't know anyone. It just makes me want to go home. Sometimes it's nice to know someone. Even at work, my co-workers are sarcastic, negative outlook people. I feel I am becoming like them. I hate it. I know I have been eating alot because of this loneliness, like I did in High School. Friends from my previous town rarely call or email. My family don't really call unless I call them.
After my commitment is up as an Americorp VISTA (in June), I have considered moving back to where I moved from. Deep down, I know I can't go back. That chapter has closed. Rent is too high in that town with little to none job opportunities. I could pick up from where I left from with those jobs but know it wouldn't be any better. They are part-time dead end jobs.
I wish I just had one person that I could talk shop with. And, I mean fitness by shop. Bless their hearts, my family and my boyfriend just aren't into fitness. It's fine. But, it means I need to find someone that understands my dreams and likes talking fitness. I used to have that person in Duluth.
Because I am so lonely, I am considering getting internet at my place. (My boyfriend lets me use my internet at his place like all the time. He knows I need the outside of this town connection.) If I do get internet, I have to wonder if I can afford it. I can barely afford anything right now and my car keeps having issues. Last month, my heat went out. Today, my car kept over heating. I sure hope this year ends soon and I can have a solid job with good pay and positive people. Windows in the office would be nice, too!
Thanks for listening!