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What a weekend.....

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Big emotional rollercoaster this weekend. Firstly, our remaining spotted turtle dove sickened and died yesterday. My bird Chicken died a month ago and I'm still not over it. Poor little Snarky was never as friendly or healthy as Chicken, but we still took care of him and he was my husbands' pal. Poor husband took it pretty hard.

Then we had a visit from our friend who really needed a friendly ear and some heart-felt advice. His wife's father and mother both died last year, and his wife is finding it hard to deal with the mourning, yet she doesn't seem to want to move beyond it. She insisted on selling their family home (where our friend has lived since he emigrated from Denmark at age 7) so she didn't have to look across the street and see her folks' home - it's a public housing property and there are some rather out-of-control people living there now.

Pete didn't want to sell the house and move, but he agreed because he thought it would be best for his wife. Now he's worried because he's 55 years old and wondering how easily he'll get a good job. I hope we gave him good counsel and encouragment! It was so upsetting - he is always the most upbeat, smiling person....and yesterday he was teary-eyed several times while we talked. After he left, I had to go cry. It was like watching the sun go away forever.

Then my husband was fiddling around on YouTube and found a Kansas Red Cross video of a retrospective on the Harveyville tornado. My dad's wife was in it and seeing her was hard. I think I haven't properly mourned what happened in November because of the distraction of the rest of the trauma.

So I went to the gym today all set to lose myself in the workout so I only had that to think about. I think my trainer and I are going to struggle with eachother soon. The weights she wants me to use for some of the specific sets are just too heavy. Seems counter-productive. I guess if she insists, I'll just have to do my own thing and use my own judgement. I'm too old to be having someone think I'm being a wuss when I'm legitimately struggling.
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    Good grief, dear heart~ *hugs* I'm so sorry there's so much loss & suffering going on in your life~ *hugs* Delayed mourning is not uncommon considering all that the caretaker or executor has to contend with in the midst of subsequent events. We saw it clearly in my Mother after Daddy passed away~ it was a good four years before she really started mourning her loss. I imagine it comes in waves~ so just ride out the storm, sweetheart~ *hugs* BB~ emoticon
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    I don't know why I'm missing your blogs! ACK! I'm subscribed! Lemme get caught up this weekend & I'll come back to post s'more~ *hugs* BB~
    P.S. Exhausted after another grueling day at school. Sweet dreams~ emoticon
    978 days ago
    Sending hugs your way. Hope you have a better week this week!
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    Take time for yourself, and treat yourself with the utmost kindness. I love to go to the gym when working through difficult emotions.

    982 days ago
    emoticon Unfortunately grief is part of life. A big part. Sorry for your pet losses I know how dear they can be.

    As to your trainer, I'd let her go now. It isn't working and you are setting the issue between you two as an issue to trip up your progress. You need someone who truly gets where your coming from. Working out is enough to contend with. Struggling with someone else while doing it isn't part of a healthy work out.
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    Sending you more hugs - some days things just aren't worth waking up, are they?
    982 days ago
    WOW you really have had a bad weekend. Hope you have a emoticon week you deserve it.
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