Today is day 19 of my current streak!
It sure is great to be back on track, but yesterday I was feeling a little bummed out. As some of my Spark friends know, I was off track for a while and ended up gaining back 31 of the 71 pounds I'd lost. My clothes were super tight, so I broke down and bought one pair of elastic waist jeans. I absolutely hated having to do that...but the truth of the matter is, I HAD to do it. My regular jeans were so tight, I could no longer squeeze into them anymore.
So yesterday, I decided to try on a pair of my "regular" jeans. I knew they would still be tight, but I thought that I would at least be able to put them on and button them without TOO much trouble. After all, I've been back on track for over two weeks! I've been tracking my food and watching my calories. I've been drinking my water. I've been doing my best to move more. And I've been working out faithfully...cardio, strength training and yoga. So surely those regular jeans should be a little closer to fitting me again, right?
Wrong. Those jeans are still way too tight! I could get them over my hips a little easier, but I had to suck in my belly in order to button them. I stood there, looking at myself in the mirror...with my belly oozing over the top of my jeans...and I felt pretty discouraged. I'm so sick of wearing that one pair of elastic waist jeans that I bought! I want to wear REAL jeans again! So I was feeling very discouraged.
There was a time when I would have allowed that feeling to lead me straight into a junk food binge. And to be honest, I almost did do that yesterday as I stood there looking at myself stuffed into those jeans. But then I stopped myself. I realized that my very next move would either take me one step further from my goal, or one step closer. The choice was up to me.
So I took off those jeans and put them back in the drawer. I put on my workout pants, and I went into the living room and I worked out. And as I worked out, I realized that I'd just had a non-scale victory. It wasn't the one I had planned on, which was having those jeans fit again. But it was still a NSV worth celebrating, and that NSV is that I didn't give in to the temptation to binge. I chose to workout instead, and that workout brought me another inch closer to my goal.
Those jeans will fit me eventually, as long as I keep making the choice to step towards my goals, instead of away from them. I look forward to that particular NSV, but in the meantime I am going to enjoy the journey!