Thursday, March 27, 2014
This month, this year has been topsy-turvy, what with my slipping and sliding around Maintenance. My knee injury, not exercising as much, my family drama, my work drama - all of this just kept heaping onto my back until I felt like I would collapse.
But this week has been a nice change of pace, particularly yesterday. Every day this week, I've exercised - running on Monday, spin on Tuesday, and then cycling/running on Wednesday. Yesterday, I was proud of my food choices; I really REALLY worked on asking myself, "Are you hungry, or are you bored?" Oh, and drinking water :)
Looking at things now with a clearer head, I can see one HUGE factor I need to start addressing: Not freaking out. Not obsessing over every little thing. To try to find my peaceful core, to slip away from the stress around me. And if I can't, maybe I need to find a way to reduce that stress.
Not only am I a food addict, I'm also an emotional eater. So that means, stressed out? Cookies. Bored? Crackers. Sad? Cake. Lonely? Whatever I can get my hands on.
It's OK to be stressed out and lonely, but not to eat those feelings away. Because nothing I put into my mouth is gonna change my mental state. I, once again, need to work on accepting my emotional state and changing that withOUT food.
But small steps. Today, I am going to bask in the beauty that was yesterday's healthiness, and repeat that for today.
I'm not perfect, but I am healthy :)