Wednesday, March 26, 2014
The last two months in my personal life I have been struggling quite a bit with things. My depression has been very severe, which is why I have been absent. I hope sp friends understand. I am starting therapy and am trying to build myself up again. I also decided to make a "forgiveness list" which is something that I read about in a book. You write a list of all of the people you have ever felt resentment towards or still harbor ill at ease feelings with when you think of them, even people as far back as grade school. You write down the reason you are angry with them, the lessons you learned from them, burn the paper, and make a promise to go on with your life and release the negativity and hatred. I realized that there were people in my past I was still holding grudges towards that I did not even think about until now, and it felt really good doing this.
I have just been really struggling with some things that are hard to describe in words, but had to work on myself and just really get to the bottom of some core issues in my life. I just wanted to let everyone know that I really have missed everyone. Its always amazing how if you dont come on awhile, friends still care sending notes of encouragement goodies. I just love Spark. There is no other website I have encountered in my life where people promote such kindness and motivation. I just really need to get started again.
I have also been trying Emotional Freedom Technique. If anyone who doesnt know what that is its where you tap on certain accupuncture points on your body and relieve stress and it releases seretonin in the body, I believe there is a spark team for it here too! Its very easy to practice. Its been helping me, and instead of snapping at people or runnning to the kitchen, I have been doing this and am noticing myself feeling better. I recommend this to anyone reading.
I really hope I can get in touch with friends and that I can find my way again.