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Wednesday, March 26, 2014

41-Day Personal Challenge
DAY 23: Half Way Point & true confessions

Yesterday was the half-way point in my personal 41 day challenge -- that's the date of my annual check up with my former Dr - and I want him to be surprised!!!

When I weighed this morning, I've already lost 4 pounds and am in 160-land again!

I can already feel such a difference!!! I know I'll be happy when I measure on the 1st because my clothes are already feeling different. And so am I !!!

My next short-term victory (when I reach 165) comes with a reward ---- a massage.

Now, for the confessions. . . . .

I am doing this for my health, not for the scale.
Picking a number on the scale is merely a target.

My ultimate goal is good physical, emotional and spiritual health.

At my last appointment 3 years ago with Dr. O, he stressed that I was pre-diabetic, heading in the wrong direction, and that I had to lose weight and start exercising.

Dr. O has been my family physician for many years. Having seen my dad through his final years, Dr O is well acquainted with my genetic disposition.

Well, 3 years ago, I tried to exercise. I couldn't even do 3 minutes on the elliptical. I was so discouraged. I gave up . . . eventually gained to my highest weight ever 180.

And I switched Dr's. I just couldn't face Dr. O.

Then Oct 2, 2012, I found SparkPeople and enrolled in SparkCoach. For 90 days, I kept my nose to the grindstone, just as if I was enrolled in a continuing education class at college.

Within 4 months, I'd lost 18 pounds. I was 3 pounds short of my goal but just couldn't reach it. So, I decided to see how long I could maintain the 18 pound loss.

I did okay for a few months, but then I began pushing the limits and, of course, the pounds started coming back on. . . . one pound at a time.

And I knew it, every time I made a decision that sabotaged my health plan. SparkCoach taught me well. But I started making exceptions and traded away the good decisions for what I wanted more. I want to eat this! I just can't face the elliptical today.

While the occasional exception might not hurt too much . . . but when they become routine . . . it begins to undermine everything. Again . . . and there goes the plan out the window. Again.

Within 6 months, when the scales hit 170, I said ENOUGH! But it wasn't . . . I half-heartedly tried again only to gain 3 more pounds. I kept losing and gaining the same 2 pounds for several months. Until it was time to schedule my annual check up. I don't really care for my new Dr . . . so I scheduled an appointment with Dr. O.

23 Days ago, I was still at 173. when I started this 41-Day personal challenge.

Saying NO! to those little extras (or BIG extras) is the hardest thing for me to do.

Finding the motivation to exercise is the next hardest thing.

The bottom line here is that I want to have a good quality of life for as long as I live.
I'm 61 years old. I've seen too many people live out a miserable existence in their final years because they quit. Quit moving, quit trying.

I refuse to quit because I want to be the best I can be.

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    We are all pulling for you. There is a dichotomy within mine and my wife's family where one Dad and one Mom live healthy by eating right, moving, and staying at a great weight vs another Dad and Mom who are both overweight, make excuses as to why they cannot lose weight or exercise and live that miserable existence you mentioned. Interestingly, the two with college educations are the laggards and the two with high-school educations are the healthy ones, not that it should matter but just interesting. So in conclusion, you are very right and you know you can do this!
    1424 days ago
    Just like me... in a bit of a slump right now... so lets do this !
    1425 days ago
    You are Smoking Hot!! Great work and not backing up! (I like what you said about the scale too) ............. and your ultimate goals!! ............ emoticon YOu will get there ............ for sure!!
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    1425 days ago
    I think you just did a blog, Cathy, on my one year review! I too have made many exceptions over the past several months which have resulted in my weight loss stall.

    I'm right beside you in your challenge to reach this goal. Can you feel me encouraging you along? emoticon
    1425 days ago
    I love that you are doing this for your health & to enjoy life - I have seen so many people give up, too. Great perspective!!! emoticon
    1425 days ago
    emoticon so proud of you for not giving up and keeping on trying. You can do it.
    1425 days ago
    You are doing great with your challenge, and Dr. O will be amazed.

    The trick will be to keep up the good work after the appointment...and I have faith in YOU, that you'll do just that! emoticon
    1425 days ago
    This is a wonderful blog. I have complete faith in you.
    1425 days ago
    You know this is a wonderful blog. I'm so glad you shared all this with us.

    Every time I hear a Depends commercial, a commercial for a retirement community, Insurance for your guaranteed passage into full time medical care when you have 1 foot in the grave, I get down right pissed off!! Who said that when we age we get this way? Who guarantees that our older years are spent in medical care facilities? We do! We do by not taking care of ourselves when we can and when we know we should. Yes, we aren't 21 anymore and can eat anything and drink anything and stay up 24 hours and feel fine. LOL But we CAN do something right now to insure our healthy and fit older years. I for one love this policy! And it pays me dividends.

    Wow, that was a little vent.

    1426 days ago
    Love it. You are inspiring
    1426 days ago
    Excellent, Cath! You really DO have it this time! Spark has taught you lots about dedication and & possibilities. And just look at you --- in the 160's and feeling great!!! YOU GO GIRL!

    I hope you fess up to the dr when you see him. He will probably bow to you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1426 days ago
    I am so proud of you!
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    boy does that sound familiar... I could have written it. Thank you for your honesty, and just keep at it, one day at a time, one meal at a time. Together, with SP, we can do it.
    Hugs, Gail
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    You are so inspiring with your straight forward honesty. Many of us have traveled that path of lose and gain and lose again. It is encouraging to hear from someone who understands, and is determined to make the best possible choices.
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    You are so inspiring with your straight forward honesty. Many of us have traveled that path of lose and gain and lose again. It is encouraging to hear from someone who understands, and is determined to make the best possible choices.
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