41-Day Personal Challenge
DAY 23: Half Way Point & true confessions
Yesterday was the half-way point in my personal 41 day challenge -- that's the date of my annual check up with my former Dr - and I want him to be surprised!!!
When I weighed this morning, I've already lost 4 pounds and am in 160-land again!
I can already feel such a difference!!! I know I'll be happy when I measure on the 1st because my clothes are already feeling different. And so am I !!!
My next short-term victory (when I reach 165) comes with a reward ---- a massage.
Now, for the confessions. . . . .
I am doing this for my health, not for the scale.
Picking a number on the scale is merely a target.
My ultimate goal is good physical, emotional and spiritual health.
At my last appointment 3 years ago with Dr. O, he stressed that I was pre-diabetic, heading in the wrong direction, and that I had to lose weight and start exercising.
Dr. O has been my family physician for many years. Having seen my dad through his final years, Dr O is well acquainted with my genetic disposition.
Well, 3 years ago, I tried to exercise. I couldn't even do 3 minutes on the elliptical. I was so discouraged. I gave up . . . eventually gained to my highest weight ever 180.
And I switched Dr's. I just couldn't face Dr. O.
Then Oct 2, 2012, I found SparkPeople and enrolled in SparkCoach. For 90 days, I kept my nose to the grindstone, just as if I was enrolled in a continuing education class at college.
Within 4 months, I'd lost 18 pounds. I was 3 pounds short of my goal but just couldn't reach it. So, I decided to see how long I could maintain the 18 pound loss.
I did okay for a few months, but then I began pushing the limits and, of course, the pounds started coming back on. . . . one pound at a time.
And I knew it, every time I made a decision that sabotaged my health plan. SparkCoach taught me well. But I started making exceptions and traded away the good decisions for what I wanted more. I want to eat this! I just can't face the elliptical today.
While the occasional exception might not hurt too much . . . but when they become routine . . . it begins to undermine everything. Again . . . and there goes the plan out the window. Again.
Within 6 months, when the scales hit 170, I said ENOUGH! But it wasn't . . . I half-heartedly tried again only to gain 3 more pounds. I kept losing and gaining the same 2 pounds for several months. Until it was time to schedule my annual check up. I don't really care for my new Dr . . . so I scheduled an appointment with Dr. O.
23 Days ago, I was still at 173. when I started this 41-Day personal challenge.
Saying NO! to those little extras (or BIG extras) is the hardest thing for me to do.
Finding the motivation to exercise is the next hardest thing.
The bottom line here is that I want to have a good quality of life for as long as I live.
I'm 61 years old. I've seen too many people live out a miserable existence in their final years because they quit. Quit moving, quit trying.
I refuse to quit because I want to be the best I can be.