Tuesday, March 25, 2014
I'm not going out like this. I am not going to let myself fall into the victim trap. I am MAD! I am tired of not winning. I am tired of being stuck inside the house. I am tired of giving in to every emotion and bad feeling I have. NO MORE!!!! I am going to go now and fill in my nutrition tracker, honestly. I am going to face myself and stop babying myself. I need some good arse kicking. I can do that myself too.
My friends have been so kind and helpful. They have supported me through all this when it would have been easy to just tell me to Get Over Myself!! To all my friends, I thank you for hanging on with me. I needed to find a way to fight back. I needed to find my purpose again. I am stronger than I thought I was. I have a long road ahead of me and I imagine I will get down on myself again and I hope those friends will still be here by my side.
I feel like running down the street and laughing out loud, but it is snowing and cold, so no.
My plan for tomorrow is to get my early morning indoor walk in. That way, if I don't get out ( it is supposed to be cold and very windy again) I will have at least put in my minimum in. I have a menu plan done, so I must stick to it. There is lots of food on it and I will not go hungry. I will tell myself it is going to be a good day and then make it so.