Tuesday, March 25, 2014
From March 2013 to Feb 2014 I managed to lose 24 kgs (52 lbs) and was so thrilled with my progress. As anyone will tell you, it was work, no magic happened to me.
Then at the end of Feb, we a sad events happen in our family, in fact two..of which one was the death of my dil who was only 32 yrs of age, leaving behind a beautiful little 3.5 yr old son. The other incident I don't want to even discuss...needless to say, both these events had a really bad effect on me and I just couldn't eat. Now that should be fantastic, but it doesn't work that way. I ate little, but what I did eat was terribly unhealthy and sent my blood sugar in to overdrive and as a result I was lacking in energy and ended up sick for 3 weeks and ultimately had a 5 kgs (11 lbs) weight gain in that short time. Crazy isn't it how easily weight finds its way back onto the body so quickly but then I know what is bad and if you eat pies, pizza's, sweets etc. then you pay the price and basically I should quit whining about things.
Then on Monday I was at boot camp at the botanical gardens when my son pitched up on his bicycle to enjoy an early morning ride. I have not seen him for well over a month because he chose to do a back-to-back work session to have some spare cash for something he wanted. After the class finished, I walked over to Cole and the first words out of his mouth were "wow mom, you've been doing this for a year now, well done on sticking it out, and WAY well done on your weight loss, I'm so proud of you!" In the split second, I realized that I had been so focused on the 5 kgs and clean forgotten that even deducting those 5 kgs I gained....I still lost 19 kgs in one year and that IS GREAT.
I went home with a spring in my step and renewed determination to get back on track properly. Then later the same day, my step sister who lives in the UK sent message to say she will be in SA and visiting from the 1st of May....we have not seen each other in 5 maybe 6 years so this is a double incentive to get back on track. She doesn't know I have even lost 19 kgs.
While wondering around a second hand book shop with my mother, I ended up finding a self help book this called Valleys and Peaks which I bought and spent an hour reading while waiting for my mother at the Dr's. Its all about the fact that come what may, life will have valleys (lows) and peaks (highs) and even flat plateau lines in between. There is no way around that fact. How long however, we stay in a valley is how we view it. Whether we wallow in self pity in the valley or whether we use it as a learning tool. And it really got me thinking how true that statement was. While I was totally wrapped up in the "woe is me for gaining back 5 kgs" I stayed there sorry for myself. When I got an unexpected compliment for the overall weight loss and MUCH better health, it changed my valley to a peak and gave me a whole new view of where I was, and where I was going.
The book mentioned that the plateau, again is merely a place to take a rest a while from the downward swing and do some soul searching as to why we were in a valley and how we could overcome being there.
The illustration they gave was a man climbing from a valley where he was so unhappy because the clouds hung low and obscured his vision of the heavens. What he really wanted was to see a magnificent sun set. He finally braced himself to dig deep inside and find his personal courage to leave the valley and climb to the peak. He left at the crack of dawn one day and it took many hours of really hard work. He lost his path and had to bush whack his way till he found a new path he could walk on. He ended up having to cross a strongly flowing river. By the time he got to the top all he saw was the darkness had set and he had missed the sunset. His first thought was to be miserable, disappointed and frustrated until he looked up and saw a million twinkling stars he had never seen from the valley. In the semi dark, he also realized how high he had climbed and suddenly his heart filled with amazement at what he accomplished as well as heart felt awe at the beauty of the stars in the dark sky and realized that he changed how he thought. He no longer thought that he missed the mark which was the sunset, but rather made it a new goal for the next day and an added bonus of a magnificent night sky.
So....I missed that I had still lost 19 kgs in 12 months overall and gained so much in better health. From today, I will refocus my life on losing more weight in the next 12 months and be happy and positive because I am in position to do so with a caring family and personal friends and my cheering team right hear on sparks who have all "got my back."
They mentioned that each persons journey is unique, much like a heart beat which is why in the resting period, we need to search inside ourselves for answers to our questions to why we are stuck where we are.
I hope you are able to spend time searching why you may be in your personal valley and find a way to see how you can turn that into a peak. It really is how you internalize your life.
Its upward onward...here I go.