Sunday, March 23, 2014
Did you ever have one or two of those days when you were feeling particularly insecure? I'm not talking about weight, but just about who you are and whether or not a certain person likes you or cares about the things that are important to you? From yesterday till today I was around a bunch of family members. I found myself reacting internally over several reactions and comments I received from one of these very special people. I normally feel fine around her and we usually don't treat each other in this weird way, but as I talked to my hubby about it in tears later, after she left, he pointed out that she is a very insecure person and most likely she is having some of those insecurities come out, which happened to be very untimely since I was also feeling insecure.
Several times, when I felt stressed today, I just left the room discreetly, and went into my bedroom and did 1 to 2 minute planks. Once I added 40 squats. This is a MAJOR change from my usual chow down tactic I usually partake in for this kind of stress. Now I'm still in a dangerous time frame. The binge can come later the night when stressors are eliminated, or even the next day. Tonight I went out for a quick walk to help with the stress relief. But still feeling unsettled so I wrote a quick blog. My plan is to get absorbed in reading my current paperback I'm reading.
I have to get through this, but I also need to figure out how to offer others the security in my love that they need while I'm struggling to feel accepted and loved by them.