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Strange experience.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

I had a rather strange experience today.

I was feeling pretty down earlier... feeling invisible... blah... I said to myself, "I just need to get out of here." So I grabbed my iPod, filled up my water bottle, and went for a long walk over at the Middle School. There is a round, quarter-mile track, and a half-mile nature trail track. I did a mile on the smaller track, then did three laps on the nature trail, then a lap and a half on the short track again. It added up to a little over 2.5 miles, and took exactly an hour. I walked from 1:58 until 2:58. About 2/3 of the way through my walk, I realized that without thinking about it, I went for a workout instead of going into the kitchen for food and/or wine.

Afterwards, I was feeling much better, and told Husband I'd go to the grocery store on the way home, even though he said he'd go at some point today. I figured I'd just pop in and grab the couple things we needed while I was out. So... I pulled into the parking lot and saw my dreaded SIL's car... the one who absolutely hates me. I decided to keep on driving, and just came home instead. I asked him if he minded going (he had been planning to go anyway until I said I would), and then he got all annoyed that he had to go to the store, so now he's being sullen and grouchy. I think part of his problem was that I asked him if he'd taken the towels out of the dryer and switched the laundry over while I was gone. (Of course he hadn't. He said he thought they were still drying. Whatever. I hate men sometimes. They can be so damn lazy. What irritates me the most is when he is at work, he is NEVER the way he is at home. He is never forgetful or lazy, never acts like he doesn't know how to do something, never gets annoyed when there's something that needs to be done. He actually WANTS to put forth his best efforts at work. He has a stellar reputation at work. Truly, him, and the work he does, is flawless. But at home it's a completely different story. He is lazy, forgetful, doesn't listen, doesn't pay attention, the worst procrastinator of all's infuriating).

I'm just feeling really ticked off at him today. I think I'll do everyone a favor and just stay in my room! Maybe I'll crack open the new books I got at the library. I'm going to take another shower and wash off all this stupid makeup. Nobody noticed it anyway.
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    The walk was so good for you and if that's the best thing about your Saturday you're luckier than a lot of women! emoticon
    1431 days ago
    UGH. I totally get it. My husband seriously works his butt off at work and can even manage to go from A to B without help, lol!

    Here's the thing with dressing nicely and putting on your make up - you have to do it for yourself if it makes you happy. If you like feeling put together, keep doing it whether Husband says anything, or not. Great job today!
    1431 days ago
    Thanks for the encouragement, friends! It means a LOT. I really hate bad-mouthing Husband, because he's my best friend. But sometimes I just get so irritated. My journal is one of my stress relievers. I can put my frustrations and negative thoughts down in here and just walk away. When I can do that, I'm a much happier person in real life :)
    1431 days ago
    I have to say that I am so proud of you! I think that is great that you went out out and got in some exercise when you were frustrated instead of going to the kitchen. I struggle with that and know how hard it is. Remember how far you have come. I have been following your blog for a week or so and am so motivated by you. I am gearing up for the south beach diet and was looking for motivation and I came across your blog. I want you to know that even though I don't know you, I think you are awesome! I say...wear the makeup! If it makes you feel good about YOU, then do it! If husband doesn't notice or appreciate, that is his loss...and hopefully one day he will get it. Do what makes you happy. Make your own sunshine!! I've learned the only person you can 100% count on is you. So do what makes you feel good and remember that you are special and deserve to feel great!
    1431 days ago
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    1431 days ago
    WOW awesome! It's weird how that happens, we're so used to grabbing a snack in the fridge but suddenly you find yourself out running instead or at the gym!
    Keep it up, and don't let his behavior get you down or put negativity on your journey. Just keep it up, he'll come around when he's ready.
    1431 days ago
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