I just don't know anymore
Friday, March 21, 2014
Sometimes some of the comments left make SO MUCH sense, thanks Morticia. You are SO right about certain things. Like someone buying me PEEPS when the last thing I need is more POISON (that's what it feels like). I just feel like it was a HUGE HUGE mistake sometimes. I mean the things I seem to need from this marriage I never feel like I get. I still think of Marion from time to time (OK that's an untruth BUT I can't think of her in THAT way - I usually just get wistful and teary eyed - great huh I know somebody gets real jealous). I mean this woman seemed to be so obsessed with me that she sat next to me in nearly every class in junior high and I never clued in (I think I was still too much of a boy and not enough of a man plus awkwardness,being bullied and thinking I was UNLIKABLE, etc). I still CANNOT for the life of me understand why she just left it the way she did if I was so important to her.