I don't think I've ever actually successfully completed Phase One of South Beach Diet. I typically start Phase One on a Monday. By the time Day 12 or 13 rolls around (which would be a Friday or Saturday), I cave in and have a glass(es) of wine. I just think "Meh, I've come this far, it's the weekend, so I'm going to have some wine."
I really felt the urge to have some wine when I got home from work today. (When I first started Phase One twelve days ago, I put my wine under my kitchen sink; out of sight, out of mind). I didn't give in to the urge, though. I just sighed, reminded myself of all the reasons I'm doing this, and began putting my groceries away.
So, I'm very pleased. I am so happy I made the decision to get on Phase One. I don't regret it for a second. I'm feeling GREAT and I know this is something I can keep doing for the rest of my life. I'm not saying I won't ever feel tempted, or that I won't have to make difficult decisions, or that I won't ever make a mistake again. But overall, I know that South Beach Diet is right for me. I also want to learn a little more about the Mediterranean Diet and the Paleo Diet, as there are many similar components to the three. I just like the "whole foods" approach. Oh! I made that cauliflower crust pizza again tonight and it was GREAT!! It was so delicious. I spread it out on the pizza pan to roast it this time, and that made a big difference. Next time, I will let the crust brown a bit longer than I did tonight, since it only takes a couple of minutes for the cheese to melt. I will definitely make that again. I know next time it will be even better. Husband really, really liked it, too, so that's a bonus.
Today was a good day at school. We went on a field trip to the library. I only had eight kids in my room today, so that was a real treat! While the kids were at Story Time (with other teachers), I stepped out and found three books: the South Beach Diet cookbook, Unlimited by Jillian Michaels, and Life Strategies by Dr. Phil McGraw. I'm excited to start reading them. So the field trip was fun. I have such a good class. My kids are absolute angels. Honestly, this is the best class I've ever had, and I'm already missing them, knowing summer is approaching and then they're off to Kindergarten. After work I went to the hair salon to pick up some thickening spray for my hair. I bought a bottle a couple of years ago and finally ran out of it a couple of weeks ago. So I get to the salon... They were out! Ugh! The first time in I don't know how long I decide to purchase something just for me, something kind of expensive, and purely a vanity item, but will make me feel good about myself...and they're OUT. I knew I could just come back in a few days when more came in, but she ran around to each one of her stations until she found one last bottle of it. It only had about 3/4 of an inch worth in the bottom of the bottle, but she just gave it to me! For free! I offered to pay her -- offered a couple of times to give her at least something -- but she just said no. That little bit will last me weeks if not months, so I'm tickled... definitely until she can get some more in. Also, while I was in there, I asked her to order some trial sizes of the accompanying shampoo and conditioner, because I wanted to try it before I bought it. Anyhoo...no big thing, but it just made my afternoon. Now my hair can be prettier. Yay!
It really does feel nice to be treating myself better. I'm also running low on concealer and I'd like to get a few more makeup items. I know it costs money, but I'm going to buy what I like. I have to learn to stop feeling guilty when I spend money on myself. It drives Husband crazy. He tells me all the guys he meets through work are always complaining about how much their wives shop. He says he tells them he has to force me to buy stuff...and he's right. I'm not a cheapskate; if it's for the house, or for someone else, I don't have a problem spending money. If it's for me... that's another story. I have to teach myself different ways of doing things. Spending money on myself is WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY outside of my comfort zone. In fact, just typing about it is making my chest tight and my palms sweat! Crazy. But letting myself get what I need, or even just "want" on occasion should not be a stressful thing for me. So I have to learn that. I have to learn that eating HEALTHY food is good. I'm not doing my body any favors by putting junk into it. I have to unlearn that "junk food" and "unhealthy food" is not the "preferred food." I need to learn to like whole foods, healthy foods, etc. These are all things I work on daily. It's a long road ahead, but I'm taking the necessary baby steps to get there.
I'm so glad I didn't give up on myself. I was so close to doing so.
Ok, here's today's rundown, before I go off on another rabbit trail...
Breakfast: scrambled eggs, hot herbal chamomile tea.
Lunch: leftover "fried" cabbage with turkey sausage, cottage cheese.
Dinner: homemade cauliflower crust pizza with turkey pepperoni, cheese, green olives, and mushrooms.
Activity: none. Took the day off.
I'm in bed at 8:30 on a Friday night. Honestly, there's no place else I'd rather be!