As I've said all over this website, I weigh myself daily. But I recognize the number on the scale for what it is: an abstraction, and of limited value in and of itself. So, like a lot of others, I use other metrics to measure how I'm doing.
I'm really struggling with swimming, but frequently, when I get out the pool I find myself thinking, "I feel strong." I feel tall and lean - and I am neither. There's something about the water that makes me feel strong, though. I like that feeling, and I let its goodness hang around for a while.
I'm not crazy about how I look naked, but I'm not horrified by how I look in a swimsuit. My "child bearing" hips are mostly gone. There's still a bit of an outward curve, but there used to be a shelf. My inner thighs are no where near as flabby as they used to be. And my butt & thighs are more toned. I don't have the butt dimple/pistol grips, but my rear end is looking a lot better (as the Hubs enthusiastically points out
For a long time, I couldn't fit into ANYTHING made by Danskin. I was too big even for their XXL, which they call an 18, but runs small. Once I could get into Danskin's clothes, I realized I was hooked: I almost bought some Danskins stuff at a thrift store just because it would fit. I remember when I was 20, and I was wearing a size 12 for the first time since I was in middle school. I kept buying clothes because I was so delighted to be able to buy stuff off the rack. It's kind of the same emotion. I have some Danskins XL that fit. I wouldn't mind trading in my XXLs for M, but for now, it's a cool feeling.
My back is bugging me, so I went to the chiropractor this afternoon. I was just debating skipping the strength training this afternoon, to give the adjustment time to "take." And then I realized that I feel great, I feel strong, and I want to keep this going. So I'll do my workout, and just monitor how my back feels.
Oh, and since I treated myself to a BK Big Fish sandwich for lunch, I kinda need the workout. I was craving one, so I looked up the calorie count online. I decided it was worth it. You see, I AM a dog: food is a reward. Food is comfort. Food is love. Food makes everything better.
Hoping for a great, productive weekend. Gotta keep that forward momentum rolling!