Friday, March 21, 2014
Had another small victory this week. Last week I wanted to go to church and the OA meeting but DH had other plans. Not that I made too much of it. It was just more excuses for me not to go. instead of standing up for myself I gave in and didn't go.
Well this week I set my plans in motion early. On Sunday I told DH that I was going to church Thursday morning and the OA meeting Saturday morning so if he had things to do it had to be on the other days of the week, especially if they were things I had to help him with.
I can come up with my own excuses for not going so I didn't need him to help me along!!! I was nervous all week, wondering if when the time came whether or not I would go.
So, Thursday morning I got up on time, did my exercise so I wouldn't have an excuse later for not doing it. Did my chores and then got ready for church. It isn't a formal service so I could go in jeans. I fixed my hair and put some make-up on and was feeling pretty good. When I got in the car I was surprised that I had gotten that far without backing out.
When I got to church there were only 3 cars in the parking lot including mine. When all was said and done there were only 7 people in the service including the pastor and praise leader. It was a nice quiet service. The praise music was just a lone guitar, not a band and I could tolerate that pretty well. The room was darkened so that was soothing as well.
I saw an old friend and her sister. Both ladies are in their mid 80's and they are a hoot. Both dress in the same outfits just different colors. They are so funny. Estelle, my friend saw me and gave me several hugs and was really happy to see me. That made me feel good. I hadn't been forgotten. Of course she immediately had me sit next to her so it was like I was home again.
So that was my victory! Getting out of the house for church. Now Saturday will be going to the OA meeting.