Friday, March 21, 2014
Last Fall I had a stressful time of things. I was coming undone. We joined new classes for all of my kids and I started teaching there as well. I also began a new class called redemption where I began to walk through the intense pain I was feeling about my life. It was brutal. Our groups got together and we began to walk through the dark places of our life that had been hidden. It was tough every week and then one week it wasn't tough. I felt like I had been lifted in the air. All of the grief and confusion came to an immense head and burst. I felt some relief. So while emotionally I was given some incredible truths to put in my back pocket, I did not pursue my healthy life style. In fact because we did this new program with my kids, I really did not give myself any time at all. Quick meals out, trying to take care of a lot of younger ladies in my life that are hurting. A few weeks ago I noticed that the weight had been slipping back on. I was not walking or running or anything. Our Y was not seeing us. I just felt so busy. And then I told my small group that I had gained weight. That changed everything. It made it something outside my thoughts. My thought have a way of swirling and moving that are not healthy. So, I have logged on three days. I have weighed. I have set a goal for today! water... any water.
I want my experience to be slightly different. I started out really good. Just tracking and joining some simple challenges. Then I got involved and I got overwhelmed with just trying to earn points. It was not a good fit for me. So,
1. I want to just track and weigh for awhile. A month at least'
2. I want to get back into fitness and moving. My back is stuff and I can tell I have not been taking care of me.
3. I am not weighing again until April 21. So, no matter how the week goes, the month will show.