Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Working two jobs is rough.
I give so many props to people who are diligent in the gym because right now that is not me. I've found every excuse in the book to avoid staying on track like I had planned, and I'm frustrated with myself but I also don't know how to stop the cycle. I feel like I shouldn't be struggling so much this early on. I've been fluctuating around the same 4 pounds since December, and it's now halfway through March. During last fall, I had so much confidence in my abilities and I had control over my eating but ever since I've moved home, I feel like I've lost total control. I'm back to that "can't waste food" mentality, and I hate it.
It's finally starting to get nicer outside and I'm worried about not being as prepared and far along as I wanted to be by summer. I know this is my own fault, but it's really bugging me right now.
Sorry I've been so out of touch, friends. I'm going to try to spend at least a half hour a night on SP starting tonight.