Wednesday, March 19, 2014
I mentioned in my last blog that I submitted some artwork to an online magazine for consideration and a few days ago I got rejected by them. This may sound crazy but I was so happy for myself and was going to write this whole blog about how proud I was for being rejected because it meant I TRIED something. It is really true. Somehow getting someone out there to even look at what I had done was thrilling to me and being rejected was actually great because they sent this really nice note explaining that what I had sent was not what they were looking for at this time…not that it stunk but that it just wasn't for them. But it got out there! That was the thing! So fun!
I have also been focusing on myself and my health by eating right and running. I have been feeling so very good and so very brave lately! I updated my resume and my Linkedin profile. Awesome…very awesome feeling! I even lined up and connected with a few recruiters. Progress!
Trying things. Exercising. Eating right. Connecting. What could be better? Feeling very strong and brave I even applied for a few freelance writing jobs within the blog writing/culinary field. So great!
Really great. Then…it happened. I got a note back from one of them! They are interested in me! Yikes! I was so thrilled with rejection and now I am positively terrified by someone paying attention to me and NOT rejecting me! What is wrong with me?
I was sure I had blown it in the days after I sent in the application. I was funny in my cover letter and even more funny in response to the follow up questions they had asked on the form. I hardly focused on my chef skills at all and simply amused myself by attempting to amuse them with my writing. Later I kicked myself and wondered what I was thinking! Could I have not put down that I was detail oriented, thrived on research and highly knowledgeable in my field. Did I really have to put down that having nice hair was one of my best assets? But was done was done and I got ready to be ignored. Then the note came back of their interest.
Now I have to wait to find out what happens next. This is not a full time job or anything…it is really just an occasional thing if it works out but it would be so fun. Now I wonder what I am doing though! It is what I want for sure…but I am really really nervous about it all! I had myself convinced that it was over and I was silly for even trying. Why should rejection make me so happy and not being rejected make me so jittery?!?
Whaaaa! I just got a text on my phone from someone we know for an order for a cake in May! Now THAT I can handle. No nerves. No jitters. (As long as I don't have to write on it.