Wednesday, March 19, 2014
I only ate breakfast on plan yesterday (Tuesday March 18th). And that's because I only ATE breakfast, nothing else until 7 pm. No joking. Yesterday was pretty awful.
Here's the breakfast I did eat:
* Nutrisystem peanut butter granola bar
* one egg, scrambled in a mug in the microwave with Pam spray
* coffee with Coffeemate fat free vanilla creamer and Splenda
After breakfast I had a playdate scheduled with my friend (who is also my husband's cousin) and my husband's sister. We all have kids 3 and under, ranging from just over 3, 2 1/2, just over 1, and 6 months. My friend parked in my driveway and we decided to take our kids over to my sister in law's house together. The only problem was, my friend parked her car in a tough spot for me to back around, and I wasn't looking as much as I should have... and so I had a fender bender in my own driveway!
She was laughing and said she didn't care, that her car was a 10+ year old piece of junk and they weren't going to pursue fixing the little scratch I left on her front bumper. I was apologizing up and down and offered to help pay whatever the damages would amount to, but she refused. My car, however, is not 10 years old, its brand stinkin' new! This always happens to me... something nice and shiny and new only lasts so long around me! I am the ultimate klutz/ditz/butterfingers/whate
ver you want to call people who can't have nice things. It has definitely humbled me and is a nice reminder that things are just worldly possessions, and that at least we were all okay and that it was just a bump in the driveway and not a fatal crash on the expressway at 65 mph.
ANYWAY, we went to the playdate at my sister in law's after this. It was pretty stressful because my sister in law and I don't get along very well, but we try. This funk has been in the air between us for at least 6 years, and it really eats away at my happiness (and I wouldn't doubt that it was one of the reasons I reached for food out of unhappiness and stress in the past). I am really making my 30th year (which starts in less than 3 weeks!) one of change, happiness and simplicity, so I decided to gently talk to her about it. Thankfully she was very open and receptive, apologized for whatever she and her husband had done, and we all agreed we wanted to be friends and get together for the sake of our kids growing up and playing as cousins together in the future. I was so relieved to talk it out with her... it was like lifting enormous weights off my shoulders!
After our playdate, I dropped my friend back off with her car and then I was on the phone with insurance adjusters and claim people and my auto repair shop full on until 4 or 5 pm. I found out my car will probably cost almost $1000 to fix (the rear bumper will need to be completely taken off and redone because its all one piece), but the insurance will take care of most of it and we'll have a less expensive copay and blah blah blah. My husband came home from work (and wasn't even mad at me for banging up the new car, he said it was an accident, glad I was okay, and he knows I'm WAY harder and meaner to myself when things like this happen).
By then I was running on fumes and pure adrenaline, and lets just say I did NOT stick to a diet for dinner. I was having a whiny "why did this happen to me, I deserve comfort food" kind of night, and it is what it is. I am not proud of it.
We went to Friendly's, had reuben super melts with fries, split a sundae, and had a few drinks when we got home later. It wasn't pretty calorie-wise, but it made me feel better... so that's something.
Weigh in is tomorrow, first thing Thursday morning... and I have no idea how it will go. I know that I can't keep cheating or having a couple of drinks after dinner. It's all going to add up. I will not be surprised if I gain a little this week, but I am going to get a grip and get back on track. I've worked too hard to let 15 lbs slip back on!