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Discouraged and confused

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Well This sucks, I thought I posted a blog last night but apparently it didn't load. Sigh. Well here's a short version.

I am 9 months postpartum with an adorable baby boy. I have lost about 40 lbs of my baby weight but I still have about 20 to go. I gained alot during pregnancy. I was really hoping by this point I would have been closer to pre baby weight. After getting to pre pregnancy I will still be about 40 off from my goal.

So what my last blog mostly touched on was how frustrated I have become with losing weight. I am practicing attachment parenting, and it is wonderful. I love how close I am with my son, but I am really starting to feel like I cant get anything done. I rarely have any breaks. At least not consistent ones. I have started walking more and have attempted to start running. It seems everytime I start to get into a routine, I get sick. Right now I have mastitis. Before that it was a cold, and another cold, and another before that. This year I have had 4 colds. Before having a baby I would have maybe one a year. Im just so tired of my body not cooperating.

I had a traumatic birth and I seem to be having a hard time bouncing back from that. I cant tell you the last time I had a pain free day. Its either my back, my breast, or most recently I have had problems with taking my meds for the mastitis. They have gotten stuck in my esophagus at least 3 times. It causes extreme discomfort and not to mention the anxiety that it will happen again.

I have really turned to food for comfort. I have always been an emotional eater, but now it has almost turned into a food addiction. I know now that I did not have my eating under control before I got pregnant. There has always been an underlying problem.

Im not sure what to do or how to process whats really going on. Every time I try to talk myself into eating right, I end up binge eating by the end of the night.

Normally I try not to get to down in the dumps on my blogs because people want to read blogs that inspire them, not bring them down. But I guess I need to do this for me. I need to work through this some how.

Any advice or encouragement is greatly appreciated!
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    I am an emotional eater too and can't seem to get past that so I've tried tokeep healthy snacks on hand to eat

    Don't be discouraged about not being back to where you were on your weight you will get there

    just celebrate the small steps along the way
    1461 days ago
  • KELLYB60
    I hope you feel better soon! It is miserable to be sick - especially when you are taking care of a baby.

    Try setting one small daily goal. Log all your food for one day, exercise 10 minutes. I remember those days with a baby, and some days it was a challenge just to take a shower before my hubby made it home from work.

    You've already lost an amazing amount of weight - the rest will come off with time. It won't be long and you can take that precious boy for a walk at the park. I waited so long to start taking care of myself after number 2 - I wish I had started sooner. It makes me smile all over when I see moms working out - it is a great gift to themselves, and their children.

    Hang in there - hope to see more blogs from you in the future.
    1461 days ago
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