High in weight that is. When I get into working out I kick A$$ at it. I stick to a routine, push myself and feel good! I set a goal for myself because it's easy to do something physical to meet the goal. But I also lose track of how I should be eating.
I think since I started my journey 3.5 years ago the eating has been my biggest issue. Well... it's probably everyone's issue lol. But it's been very difficult for me to maintain a healthy way of eating. Ive said it's difficult making meals for two every night- with different people come different preferences and dislikes. It's tough.
Part of it being dificult is making sure I am satisfied. But not overly. When it comes to portions I go overboard most nights. Not by a whole lot, but I would say up to twice what I have points/calorie allowance left.
I get really excited to eat, and most of the time I'm the one cooking so I am rushed to get things on the table and be done. Leaving myself to guess what the correct portion is. Otherwise I give up and just don't care about how much it is. I really wish I could figure out WHY I do so well (most days) at work and then just can't follow through at night.
That's part of the problem. I've always had an issue following things through to the end. I am a great starter, a great brain-stormer and creator, but I'm not a closer. I think what I need to do is really plan more. Slow down and take the time to measure out my portions, stick with my allowed amount and plan for freebie veggies if I need a bit more sustenance.
I hate the rigidity of plans so I tend to veer off course of plans. Im a gemini- so I was basically born with two personalities. And the two sides don't listen to each other. Somehow I need to make them if I want to drop these LBs!
I was really P.O.ed this morning when i stepped on the scale and saw 230.2. I feel some of it may be water weight since I was 226.4 Friday, but TWOTHIRTYPOINTFREAKINTWOOOOOO. NOO. Dammit. I by no means had a good weekend eating, it was pretty bad anyway even though i didn't go out/eat out. But my scumbag brain was like "oh you ran Friday and Sunday" so food doesn't count hur durrr.
UGH. Okay, sorry for the self-hating rant.
Does anyone have a good way to "break up" with food? To really become emotionally UNATTACHED to it? I know I need to find other sources of excitement and fun, that's a big part of it. Maybe I need to become very social so i forget about eating. Maybe I should try a cleanse? Or like a raw food diet for a week? Any good pointers there?
Any other advice? I was really frustrated. I am proud of the physical work I do, but my nutrition "work" is just feeble attempts at eating better. I hate to restrict myself from anything, but if I feel like a binge might happen then I need to avoid it.