Not Where I Want To Be, But Closer Than I Was
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
I'm not where i want to be in my weight loss but i am a lot closer than i was. There are many times when i start to think about how far i still have to go and it gets discouraging. I started with a weight of over 320lbs. I didn't really want to weigh myself and I only weighed myself after i had lost some weight so i don't know what my true starting weight or heaviest weight was/is. That was back in 2011. I'm currently sitting at 256.8lbs. It's taken me over 3 years to lose 63.2lbs. Mind you that in that 3 years i probably did nothing for a year and a half.
My goal weight right now is 159lbs BUT i'd be happy living in the 159-180lb range. I've been down to 180 back when i was 22yrs old (15yrs ago). I still have 97.8lbs to lose for me to reach my goal. That's MORE than what i've already lost to date. Looking at it from this angle it seems so disheartening.
But a little while back i decided to change my mind set. I'm not going to dwell on needing to lose almost 100 more pounds. Instead i will focus on the next 6.8lbs and after hat i'll look at every 10lbs until i reach my goal.
While I'm not where i'd like to be I'm so very proud of where I am. This ME of today is enjoying life so much more than the me of yesterday. I can move so much easier. I can breathe when i reach the top of the stairs. I can live life so much more comfortably than i ever have been able to.
That first picture was taken in 2012 and i ONLY ran across the finish line when the picture was snapped. The second picture was just a few months ago and i actually ran/walked the entire 5k!
I know that as long as i keep moving i will continue to improve and will continue to lose the weight. I know many people would love to snap their fingers and be at their goal weight. But not this girl. I need to learn what works for me and all along the way i'm adapting to the changes and capabilities my body is making. So slow weight loss is welcomed in my book.