Tuesday, March 18, 2014
I spent most of January and some of February in hospital on a section because of depression/psychosis, and gained an unbelievable amount of weight whilst in there. Being in hospital didn't help, it never does, it always makes me worse. After I got out of hospital when they finally took me off the section and I discharged myself, I ended up getting arrested three days later in a psychotic state and thought it was a good idea to assault a police officer who was trying to make sure I was ok (he grabbed hold of my arm, I lashed out, he hit me in the leg with his baton and knocked me on the floor, I jumped up and punched him in the face), really fkin dumb move, I can't remember any of it either. I'm on bail until next week when I have to go back to the police station to find out if I'm getting a caution or if because of my mental state at the time I "get away with it". Never been in trouble with the police before and not an experience I want to repeat.
So, a crappy start to the year, it can only get better from here right? My focus on weight loss has been non-existant, most days I don't even want to get out of bed. Small steps. I need to make sure I get out of bed, shower and get dressed every day, then try to walk the dog(s) at least once a day. Last week I found a really nice route to the lake from the house along the canal. There and back it's only 4 miles, then if I'm feeling extra energetic it's another 2.5 miles around the lake. I took Mitch with me last week and he was exhausted by the time we got to the lake, I'm not the only unfit being in the house! They don't get long walks though unless I take them out, and these days I'm exhausted just walking up the hill to the bus stop because I so rarely leave the house, so slow start for us both is required!