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Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Do you ever have phases in your life where something changes, it might be exciting, or nerve wrecking, or something tragic might have happened...and it makes your world feel so weird, different and even anxious? I am a very routine, goal oriented person, so when something changes, it can be hard for me to adjust (something I’ve been working on and have gotten better at). Maybe those examples I gave aren’t too great, because nothing major or tragic has happened in my life. I’ve just been feeling weird and confused about things lately.. nothing bad has happened to me. I just go to work, go shopping at the mall here and there, hang out at home… routine. I have been house hunting these past two weekends, nothing serious, just seeing what’s in my area. My fiancé and I have been saving up and won’t be moving out of our apartment for at least a couple years, but looking at open houses has been making me feel so different lately. This might sound dumb to say, but I feel so grown up lol. Responsibility is part of life, but knowing one day we will be home owners and parents freaks me out. It’s starting to give me anxiety… maybe I’m rushing myself. My fiancé hasn’t been coming with me to these open houses, he doesn’t even think about this stuff, but I like to be prepared for what’s to come in my future and do my research well ahead of time. A couple nights ago I couldn’t sleep at all, so I looked up some relaxation and meditation videos on youtube, first time doing this. I came across this one video (guided hypnosis relaxation), where this guy talks to you in a soothing voice and gives you these scenarios (your walking down the stairs and feel relaxed every step down you take). It’s a type of hypnosis to help you fall asleep… It relaxed me… but I got SO anxious! With the music, and what he was saying, my mind was racing! I was very relaxed… but man it really freaked me out. Its been a couple days and I still feel weird…

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NSKYLINE115 3/18/2014 1:37PM

    Haha Cath your so right, thats what i'm going through! Its exciting yet scary! I'm ready to jump, but scared to leave the ledge that i'm so familiar to. Spice, I'l take your advice and stick to saving up for now, we arnt thinking about buying now anyways. But I do want to be aware of what is around me (school system/cost of living/ safety...).

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CATHM26 3/18/2014 11:33AM

    Quarter life crisis! It happens to so many people, myself included, at 25. I'm 30 now, but a firm believer in the quarter life crisis. Google it! Basically, you start questioning your life, your choices, looking back, looking forward. It's exciting, it's scary, where am I heading?? Ahhhhh! :)

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SPICEMWE 3/18/2014 10:01AM

    House hunting in itself can be stressful. Honestly I would say it's generally a waste of time to go looking at houses until you're actually ready. A few years can make a HUGE difference in the market. Wait until you're ready and don't put that unnecessary stress on yourself before it's needed.

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NSKYLINE115 3/18/2014 8:40AM

    Thanks MJEFFERSON,
I think I might try a warm bath tonight to relax. I am looking for ways to relax, I get stressed really easily (i've been getting alot better with dealing with stress over the years), but I need to find more ways. I'm not really a reader, but I was thinking about maybe getting myself a good book to keep myself occupied. I remember last year I was going through a rough patch and I didnt want to be around anyone, so I would read and drink wine before bed, it relaxed me and I went to bed happy. We all need to find what works best for our minds and bodies. Thanks for your input!

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MJEFFERSON23 3/18/2014 7:25AM

  I know exactly how you feel. Changes are not easy for me either.I think its just a by -product of a creative mind. A warm bath always helps me sleep.

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