Monday, March 17, 2014
So last year, i believe in like Oct/Nov, I hit my goal of a size 6 jeans. As my clothes got bigger I'd load them up and donate them and totally forgot to save 1 pair of my size 22s. So while I was at the mall yesterday I decided to head into Sears and grab a pair. Here's the result.
I gotta say, I had mixed feelings while trying to hold those, now huge, pants on my waist. At first it was alittle comical b/c I"m struggling trying to unbutton the buttons and my fiance goes, "pretty sure that's not needed. You can just step into them". So I do and we're laughing about how big they are as I try to hold them up long enough to take a picture. Then I just got really sad. Sad that I was that size for so long. Sad that I allowed myself to miss out on so much life when I was heavy b/c I was so uncomfortable in my body. After a pep talk from the fiance I was overcome w/ pride and a sense of accomplishment. I worked my ass off to get into my now size 6....literally...my ass has disappeared...trying to bring it back w/ squats! hahaha But I worked hard and my fiance reminded me that I FINALLY did take that step and I'm far from where I used to be and I should be proud of that.
I've been struggling w/ maintenance since hitting my goal in Dec. I indulged quite a bit over the holidays....and following months but I'm happy to say that I've been back on track for the last month or so and I'm only 3lbs higher than my goal weight. I'm too excited to shop for new spring/summer clothes so I gotta get this holiday belly off! By Easter I'd like to be a few lbs below my goal weight of 155, just to give myself some wiggle room during the summer since I plan to have alot going on! I want to enjoy myself b/c this time last year I was on a mission to lose lose lose so I avoided alot of things so I wouldnt be tempted. This year I can have that cake at a bday party, a philly soft pretzel at a phillies game....and now I just have to work that off VS last year working off a cheat PLUS my normal weight. My goal going into this summer is to prep. Keep up on my working out and eating well every chance possible that way when I have a party/picnic/ballgame/vacation
...I can have a treat without guilt! Let's hope todays snow is the last and that spring FINALLY arrives in the northeast! haha!!!