Monday, March 17, 2014
Ever since I miscarried no scratch that, ever since I found out I was originally pregnant back in Jan of this year I have been completely derailed from all the great things I was doing for my body so I could be a healthier person in general but also so I could start my journey into motherhood. All that for some reason (when you want to be at your strongest) you find yourself totally doing the opposite that you want to do when you KNOW your carrying precious cargo. Ever since that point in time where that pregnancy test said positive I started eating whatever I wanted, not what's good and healthy for my and my baby but stuff that clogs my arteries and just was flat out not the healthiest that I KNOW that I can be. Then I got even more derailed when my doctor told me I had lost the baby on week 7 and 4 days.
This week I finally made time and my husband and his young cousin that we have guardianship over went on a mini vacation this weekend. We had a BLAST doing things like going on our first train ride. But the weekend also included eating any and everything I want that I don't ever even attempt to bring home to the point of becoming my normal binge eating self.. I ate so many calories they could carry me through this week. So yesterday after I came home exhausted and feeling just horrible physically from all the junk food I'm not used to eating anymore that I knew today Monday, March 17, 2014 was going to be a new day for sure. So as of this morning I am getting back to me and doing what I NEED to do to become that healthy person that I've always wanted to be. I appreciate you all and all of your help, encouraging words and most importantly prayers. I am looking for a accountability partner also if anyone is interested! I've put myself out there a bit but I still haven't found anyone that wants to take that step with me and us get healthy together! Thanks and have a VERY BLESSED day!