Friday, March 14, 2014
So a while back I wrote a blog about getting real with myself. Truth is, however, that until I took the step of getting on the scale it really wasn't possible to "get real".
I hate the scale. I can remember back in grade school and being weighed and the teacher yelling the weight out and even though I was only 90 pounds and I was in 6th grade, I can still remember the horror of hearing it out loud.
Then there were the monthly and even weekly weigh-ins when I was pregnant. I was once told by an OB I had to see in case mine wasn't available that I was gaining too much weight and I needed to limit my calories to 1400. I was so appalled I told my OB I would never see his partner again.
Anyway, when you are in your 20's and early 30's and you are pregnant you see numbers on the scale that you never thought you would see. Looking back, I realize that it wasn't that much but it was to me.
Fast forward and I now have scale-phobia. I have relied on how my clothes fit, what others say or even how I feel to judge the success of my eating and fitness plan. However, the truth is that while all of those are good measures of success, the scale is essential if I am going to actually reach my goals.
I have read so many brave and courageous blogs where people have faced their fears head on and even shared them with the SP community and I have been inspired by their bravery and it pushed me to jump on the scale. It wasn't as bad as I thought or as good as I had hoped. I have lost about 9 pounds total....not great, but at least it wasn't a gain. I also know that I have gained muscle weight but I'm not going to fool myself into thinking that it is anything more than what it is.
I am committing to a weekly weigh in on Thursday's from this point forward and I believe that the accountability of the scale will propel me to be more vigilant about tracking EVERY bit of food that goes in my mouth. I have increased the duration and intensity of my workouts and along with SP Coach's Plateau Busting Program, I am committed to significant weight loss over the next few weeks.
I know it won't be easy but for the first time in a very long time, I truly think I can do it.