Thursday, March 13, 2014
I only spent about 20 minutes in the pool this morning. Lesson learned: I need to leave the house a little earlier for Thursday-morning pre-court swims.
I almost feel like I'm back at square one. I am doing better, but I'm struggling to put it all together. I do notice it's easier to breathe on my right side than my left, but the big issue is still the panic that builds if I feel water in my nose.
I did pretty good today: I either blew it out or spit it out. I don't think I swallowed any. But I need to learn to deal with this CALMLY. I'm going to get a lot of water in my nose. It happens. I need to focus on just keeping continual outward pressure any until it's time to breathe in.
I also had a hard time exhaling through my mouth. It seemed like when I did that, it felt like water was headed for my sinuses. I'm not sure home much of that was physical and how much was mental. It doesn't really matter, because again, I need to learn to deal with this calmly.
I think what I'm going to do is hit the pool as often as I can, even if it's only for 15-20 minutes. It's only with practice that I can re-train my brain and get it to not panic when it thinks water is encroaching on its turf. Any time a kid in my jurisdiction gets arrested, I'll have a hearing in the court across the street from my club in the early afternoon. That means I can be in the pool every day of the week. Thursday mornings are a given, too. If my husband is willing to part with my company for an hour or so on the weekend, I can get in a weekend drill, too.
Part of my frustration is that my first triathlon is only two and a half months away. I know I can do this, but I would prefer to go into my first tri uber-confident. I want to start doing open-water swims as soon as possible (once the river warms up a little and I buy my wetsuit).
I need to remind myself that I have a good plan. I'm committed. I'm focused. These inconveniences and bad happenstance are not going to derail me. The only thing that is going to stop me is me, and that is NOT acceptable. Absent some life-altering injury, I am going to do this triathlon. What I need to do right now is cut myself some slack. Remind myself I am a complete beginner in the pool. Even if I can only do a few laps, so long as my form is good, I don't care that it's only a few: speed and distance will follow.
So, get back on that horse, kiddo.