My new understanding in life.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
So I really don't go into my problems in an open forum, you know, the whole privacy thing. Tonight I will. Not for sympathy, or grumbling. It's just a release of the headache. A few weeks ago I post a grumpy angry blog which was deleted later that day. Well, this will cover many of the same subjects, but calm with understanding of life. Don't like it one bit, just dealing with the punches.
My fitness- working on this slowly. not over training like I usually do, but this is usually how I de-stress
My friends- have a few, but almost never see them. I work nights and they are on days.
Work friends- work is a trick question. lots of stress lately which has recently ended. The flip side is that you don't whine downhill.
My son- some here know he has bad ADHD. Yes, attention and hyper, what a great mix. Failing school while being the most intelligent kid in class. He is now actively and purposely destroying assignments to not turn them in. His latest Psychotherapist is saying there is an underlining mood disorder. The school counselor, therapist, and police officer (another story) tend to agree.
My daughter- started entering the transition into womanhood. She has been sad and depressed, but not out of the usual for an almost 12 year old girl. Until 2 weeks ago when she started cutting herself. We took all the steps. Medical doctor, some light meds until counseling kicks in, started therapy, talking to mom and/or dad (mostly mom), and it seemed to be going o.k. Until now, cutting is back and deeper, letters of suicide, dad doesn't care, things are all her fault, no friends, we're poor, ...etc...tomorrow we will be checking her in.
My wife- if you've been around us, you know it's not that great. We get along, but rocky, and most of the depth of our relationship is gone. This started before all of life's crud came in. Now I'll get the calls at work with her crying, she had to have the doctor tell me about my daughters latest, and she spends most of her days sitting around sleeping.
The day the restaurant manager got fired, the bartender didn't show, and we had a Boardroom meeting to take care of. I did all three, worked 11.5 hours, and finished the day with a double promotion. I was received with my family waiting at home for me to make them dinner, I also washed dishes.
Odd thing is that I'm not angry or upset anymore with any of this. I've just come to view it as part of life. Sorry about all the depressing junk. This is just me setting down the bag of bricks I've been carrying.
I do know there are wonderful things in life too. I'm letting this go tonight, so I can look at the good easier tomorrow.
Carry on friends, Thank you, Konrad