Not feeling it . . .
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
I'm having trouble getting in gear and staying motivated! I rejoined Weight Watchers almost 9 weeks ago in an attempt to loose the 12 lbs. I gained last October - January. I wasn't able to go last week, but at my last weigh in on 2/26, I only lost 3 lbs. in 7 weeks.
I've been eating so much crap and not tracking lately and I haven't been on the scale in over a week! Last night was another "crap fest" and I really didn't want to get on the scale this morning (so I didn't). I only hope I haven't gained back the 3 lbs.!
I'm not sure what is going on and why I am so lacking the motivation! I even discussed quitting WW with my oldest sister (who also made Lifetimer and is 10+ lbs. over goal!). She is also not "feeling it"!
I'm also not "feeling" the running. I'm staying pretty active and getting in a lot of walking with the puppy. I take a 10+ min. walk every morning and we usually take her to the park in the evenings when we can to walk/run (DD#2 & #3 run - I walk!). On the evenings we can't get to the park, I take another long walk with her. She loves running through the pasture and the leaves. We even went to a state park on Sunday and hiked up a waterfall trail (part of the Appalachian Trail) and my legs are feeling it!
I think part of my lack of motivation is I seem to be really busy and stressed! I've always been a working mother of 3, but this school year seems to be so busy (and stressful). I thought last year was bad! DH is also working a lot of "side jobs", so he's either working away from the house, doing projects at the house or really tired! He still does a lot with the girls and around the house, but their schedules, grades, activities, running around, etc. usually falls on me!
When I got home yesterday, I took the puppy out for a walk, went to the grocery store, picked up DD#2 from volleyball (working the junior camp), cooked dinner and worked with DD#1 on her college scholarship application. DH was home by that time and he also worked with DD#1.
DD#1 has already been accepted to her "college of choice" and we already have her dorm room. She got a case of "senioritis" and is letting the grades slip, etc. She also hasn't done what she needs for scholarships and there is a 3/15 deadline! So this is stressing me out. You get bombarded with so many sources for "help" (e-mails from college sources, from the high school, etc.), but all it does is stress you out more! She felt really bad last night and apologized for her procrastination. DH and I reminded her how proud and excited we are for her and what a great future she has and the last thing she needs to do is get "lazy" and blow a lot of opportunities.
So even though I had a great dinner (chicken fajita salad) and a long walk with puppy & dog and it was already pretty late in the evening, I still managed to consume a lot of crap last night. It almost bordered on a "binge". I stress eat, but last night it was almost a little out of control because it was all within about 30 mins.
Of course I feel really guilty this morning, but I ate my healthy breakfast and packed my lunch and I'm even going to attempt to go back and track everything. I'm paid with Weight Watchers through the end of April, so although I don't want to go tomorrow, I'm going to go. I at least need some accountability even though I'm not feeling it and am a little out of control!
The clocks have "sprung forward", the weather is getting warm and it's almost time to drag out the spring clothes.
I'm ready for a change and some motivation!