I have not been ignoring you Sparkfriends. I have also not been freaking out, wallowing, having a pity party or eating random things! So where have I been and what have I been doing? I have been here…evaluating.
I have never been in quite this kind of position before. I am a little "out here" in the world with out direction. Or at least I was. This place we have moved is nice for sure. Winter was not so bad, plenty of activities for the kids, a fantastic job for Patrick and an interesting apartment. What there is not here is a normal job for me! i have been floating along hoping something would come up but there is no permanent position for mw at the hotel where Patrick is so I fill in where needed. Good but not great. There is no other work environment here, in this town that has any interest in me though. I am only 20 minutes from Oslo but I would have to find the perfect part time position that was smack dab in the middle of the day and then commute by train. Not likely. Sooooo…here I am.
Being here is weird. This past weekend I brought Quintessa to the library where they were to have a cake decorating demonstration by the famous cake guy here who has a shop at the mall and has been on TV. Guess what. He didn't show. There we were all these kids all these cupcakes and no famous cake decorator. I could not help myself and in my broken Norwegian I stepped in and offered to help. I could not do much because I was not prepared but I could show them how to use and full a pasty bag and keep things moving, neat and clean while the kids decorated cupcakes. It was so much fun it made me sad! I have been told over and over again that I make better tasting cakes that the "famous guy" and just as interesting looking cakes but I have no place here to utilize my skills! No one wants poor me! :-)
What do I do? Last month I made myself a goal list for the next several years (previous post) and through the process of making the list and beginning to knock things off of it I have come to realize where some of my strengths lie outside of the culinary field. I have started to ask myself what really makes me happy and what I am good at. I have started to ask my self also, with my lifestyle as an expat what I really need. I have spent the past month "getting into" me while trying hard to think outside of this pastry box I have been in for so many years. Don't get me wrong, it is a nice box but right now it might as all be in the attic with our summer things and all the other things up there we are saving for another season.
What have I done? Well, I have finished Liam's birthday invitation and turned it into a finished art project that is now hanging on the wall.
Today I submitted the image to an online magazine for consideration.
I also sat with my children and created bookmarks one weekend an submitted them into a book mark competition. Here are the entries:
Girl int the Red Hat by Quintessa
Fish Faces by Quintessa
Cute Faces by Liam
Pink Fox by Quintessa
Many Hats by Ronna
There are hundred of amazing entries and we will not win, I am fairly confident but we had so much fun and we worked together.
I have entered three different writing competitions as well. They were short stories…one was extremely short at only 21 words!
How do I feel? I feel like nothing is going to be handed to me here. I cannot feel sure that I will just get a job here no matter how hard I try (and I have) so…I have to DO something. I have to make change. I have to try something. As a young person, despite what my scholastic mentors would tell me and my parents about my abilities I was literally forbidden to pursue art and writing as a career. (I can remember the screaming matches well! ) I suppose once I was supporting myself and had adjusted to "real life" I could have had a go at it but by then I had found my culinary career. Now my culinary career is stalled!
I have decided that I need a "portable career", one that is not dependent on where I am living, what language is spoken there or what Patrick is doing. For me, I think I am not skilled enough at this point to attempt to become a visual artist because that part of me has been lying dormant for so very long but I can enjoy that with my children as a hobby and as a tool to feed my creativity. Writing, however, I feel may be a possibility. I am not sure if I am technically a great writer but I do feel that it is a skill that I might be able to use if I work on it. I'm gonna try! I am making enough and working few enough hours right now (2 to 4 days a week) at the hotel to have some time to explore the possibility of making some money in the future using my love of writing. I will restart my little blog that I got going and let go of some years ago. I will practice and enter these free competitions I find on line and I will look into what it takes to earn money at it.
So That is what I have come up with. That is what I have been doing. I welcome any ideas or advice you may have for me and my new attempt at a portable career. I trust you…my Spark friends. I intend to be here more and more once I learn how to balance my time…I think being here and writing to you all is one of the big factors in my realizing writing as a possibility so I do thank you for that. At the very least…I am enjoying myself way more than that pity party I threw for myself a while back!
(BTW…Here I don't edit much or proof read…I just want to "talk" but don't worry I will do a fine job at editing out there in the "other" part of the internet world!