Sunday, March 09, 2014
I just realized I didn't do this last year as I was so still recovering from almost dying due to the liver hemorrhage. God was really active in my life helping me recover for many weeks after saving my life last year. I felt his overflowing presence daily. This year I am learning more about more balanced emotions to be "FIT" (my one word for 2014). Juggling many things is not the same as balance...just hit me in the head last week after a friends said it. Juggling too much and not the right kind of things is how I got to 242 pounds in the first place. I am at 126 today but the work is not done. The weight loss is just the physical part, life requires me to do the emotional and spiritual part to have balance and a full peace filled life. I didn't say without challenge or ups and downs but inner peace that helps me deal with these things through my relationship with God.
Stress is an enemy and tool of the Satin and coping through relying on Jesus is the key for me. As a counselor and a Christian I find Jesus is the Greatest Counselor. The cognitive and behavioral techniques are right there in the Word if you look for them. Decisions and changes about spending more time in the Word, the number of hours I am working (which means saying no sometimes), not allowing the physical fitness/exercise to be squeezed out and feeling ok about taking care of myself is what I need to find peace. Because after all I sacrifice I still get the "Letter" I am dealing with. This makes the sacrifice of God time, the Word, physical fitness, family time, emotional energy for clients/work/income so not worth it. If I continue to do this work things will change. If I don't do this work things will change anyhow.
Change is inevitable and has been the theme in my life for a long time. Before I just didn't see the negative toll and drain of this change on my life. I was so busy trying to be super woman healing from the 2004 car accident, and being able to do what I used too when I really couldn't do all of that. This last year since January 2013, has been all about drastic change in the other direction and a healing flow. I am getting more physically fit since loosing this weight and WLS surgery (that was not the complication) and the hernia surgery(that was a complication the abdominal incision) out of the way. Now it's time to focus on the rest of me!
I cannot give up much as nutritionally for this fast as I am just meeting my needs. I am giving up the delicacy of little candies I had begun soothing my stress with and instead increasing my time with Jesus through "word snacks". These are scripture and inspirational cards I have made from my "FIT" notes since January and Joyce Meyer 30/30 bible study since March 1, 2014. I will carry them in my pocket, lunch box and, post in my office. I am focusing on feasting on the Word. I am doing additional bible time each day, and I will walk my 10,000 steps not cheating myself. I will start my c25k back during this time as well. God guide my steps and lead me to know what you would have me know in YOU!