Saturday, March 08, 2014
So there is a reason I've been absent and as a result I've gained. I've gained about 20 pounds of the 40 I lost back and am back in the 200s. I wish there was someone else to blame, but I only have myself to blame. I have more bad days than good right now, but I'm trying to get back on track. I started losing traction in Nov and with the holidays, yeah, not so great.
At the end of October I reconnected with an old flame. It had been 8 years since we had seen each other and the break up the first time around had been my doing. However, I had thought of him from time to time. We got back together and it seemed like this time it was going to work. Well, I won't go into details, but 2 weeks ago he broke up with me and took my heart with him. To say it took me by surprise is an understatement. Since then I've been yo-yoing somedays it's all I can do to eat and then others it's a battle to stop.
In other news for the last week my walking partner has been sidelined with an injury. Ares, somehow tore off part of his toenail, we're talking limping and blood. So the vet after prescribing antibiotics and pain meds, also prescribed bed rest or as much bed rest as you can get an energetic 3 year old dog to do. However, tomorrow I am going to take him out and see if a little light activity doesn't do him some good, he's getting cabin fever.
I write all this to make myself accountable. I'm so tired of all this and I'm going to try this thing the "SPARK" way. Which means that on my dining room table right now is the vision collage I'm working on. I'll post a picture when I'm done. Which means I'm going to try to blog more often and track even when it's awful. I love this community for the amazing support I've found here and I'm going to try to be worthy of that support. I just needed to get this off my chest. Good night and God bless!