Saturday, March 08, 2014
So after a week of workin my ass off, and following my JC menu, I had broke 2 goals (last friday). I was so excited as anyone could tell. Then I sunk, way down. Right from Saturday afternoon, to Friday. It was a mess. I knew what I was doing was wrong as was gunna end up kickin me in the ass come Friday morning when I stepped on the scale. So why was I doing it? Why was I continuing to eat? I wish I knew!! Do I not feel that I am worthy of success?? Cuz I am! Do I need to fail to get back the motivation to keep going? Is losing 12 lbs and beating a weight loss goal 10 days early not enough motivation? I thought it was. That 3 lbs I lost 2 wks ago came back last week and mocked me through the numbers on the scale. I want this week, and every week from here on out, to be different. I WANT to lose the weight! I WANT to succeed! I WANT to fit into my clothes again! I WANT to feel good about myself! I WANT to break goal after goal after goal! So how do I stop from sabotaging myself the next time I have a good week??