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My Spark has Bi-polar Disorder

Saturday, March 08, 2014

My healthy living routines have bipolar disorder. ups and downs. I've been in down mode for about 3 months now--and I'm sick of the guilt! I go really well for a few months, then SOMETHING happens. So I might reach my goal in some year in the far future. In a galaxy far, far, far away. (just a little humor) But I never give up!

Healthy living has become an ingrained part of my life. When I'm doing it right, I lose weight, inches, and gain a huge sense of self-confidence and pride. When I'm down, I feel guilt.

Why is it so incredibly hard to start up again???





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WORKOUTWITHPAM 3/8/2014 9:12PM

    Something that I read here on SparkPeople:

"When you get tired of 'starting over,' STOP QUITTING!"

Something I experienced in real life many years ago:

"I got sick and tired of feeling sick and tired, and I have never had to 'start over' again!"

I started over quite a few times without success, and yes, the guilt was there, but it was like one day, I WOKE UP, and I asked myself, "Why am I doing this to myself?" "Why won't I let myself be happy?" Something 'clicked' in my head, and I've been much kinder to myself since that time, and that was many years ago. Ask yourself those same questions, and see what you come up with for an answer.

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KASEYCOFF 3/8/2014 2:20PM

    You got that right about the ups and downs - stress? anxiety? I need some ice cream. Happy news? Celebration? I need some ice cream. LOL! I just keep trying to put one foot in front of the other. Stumbles and falls along the way, but... any progress is good progress, IMHO.
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ONEKIDSMOM 3/8/2014 11:06AM

    Welcome to the Turtles Over 50 Reaching Our Goals team, and a great blog on the day, too! The why it is so hard to start? I don't know. I do know the hardest steps of a run are the ones to get yourself out the door to do it! emoticon emoticon

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KITT52 3/8/2014 11:02AM

    maybe you should think of it as not starting again and think of it as what wonderful things can I do for Emily today...make small changes....
think about how good you feel when you are on track and stop dwelling about the guilt....

and know we are here for you...we all struggle ...HUGS

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THINFITFEMINIST 3/8/2014 10:24AM

    we can only handle a minute amount of good. Also when we are ready to expand the first thing is to let go of the crap.

I keep telling you you are far more capable than you let on to be.

glad you posted today.

time perhaps to take the red pill?

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SLIMMERJESSE 3/8/2014 9:54AM

    Great blog! And soooo true.

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