Friday, March 07, 2014
I am back at my almost all time high with my weight. I keep on going in circles and I am sick of it. I am sick of me and I am making me sick.
I hate being negative as I always want to be an inspiration to others. How can other believe in me if I don't believe in myself.
I am sick of failing as that is what I keep on doing. I never follow through. I hit highs and then I just go go go and so pumped up and ready for the world, but then all of a sudden it is like I fell down in the gutter again.
There is nothing out of the ordinary I am eating. I am not an emotional eater at all.
We have a very limited budget so I can't even go buy veggies or anything, will have to make do with what we have now :(
I don't understand why I keep doing this to myself. I need help. I really really need help.
I don't always want to be a disappointment to myself. How can I be a good role model to my kids if I can't even take care of myself.
I don't want to keep failing. I don't know what to do anymore.
Please can someone seriously help me, please...