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Please help me

Friday, March 07, 2014

I am back at my almost all time high with my weight. I keep on going in circles and I am sick of it. I am sick of me and I am making me sick.

I hate being negative as I always want to be an inspiration to others. How can other believe in me if I don't believe in myself.

I am sick of failing as that is what I keep on doing. I never follow through. I hit highs and then I just go go go and so pumped up and ready for the world, but then all of a sudden it is like I fell down in the gutter again.

There is nothing out of the ordinary I am eating. I am not an emotional eater at all.

We have a very limited budget so I can't even go buy veggies or anything, will have to make do with what we have now :(

I don't understand why I keep doing this to myself. I need help. I really really need help.

I don't always want to be a disappointment to myself. How can I be a good role model to my kids if I can't even take care of myself.

I don't want to keep failing. I don't know what to do anymore.

Please can someone seriously help me, please...

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FARMGIRL-CINDY 3/11/2014 3:37PM

    Life is tough on a budget. Take some time and plan your meals, even if it is only for next month. Money that went for crisps and take-aways can be used to buy veggies and other whole foods.

It's really hard staying motivated. But you're still blogging, so you haven't given up hope. Keep on checking in with others and build a support group. And remember that every small success is still a step forward.

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NYARAMULA 3/9/2014 7:47AM

    Take it slow, one step at a time. don't overwhelm yourself with big goals. emoticon

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KATD13 3/7/2014 10:37PM

    I understand. I regained everything that I worked so hard to lose. It's discouraging, to start all over. But there is no alternative, I'm not giving up!

First: Be kind to yourself. Would you say those things to your best friend? Probably not, so don't say them to yourself. No one is perfect. There will be setbacks & mistakes. All we can do is try & do better. Most important, is to love yourself.
Regardless of your weight, you have people who love you & you love them.

Next: How can we fix this? What can we do? Just track, track, track every bite. And squeeze in a little more exercise.

Finally:We've got your back. You can do this, I can do this, we can all do this! We're in this together & we're going to make it happen!

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    I know what you are talking about. I too am on a very tight budget which makes buying fruits and veggies difficult. They can be so expensive. I buy what is in season and I still eat regular food, I just portion it out. I don't eat out and I have completely cut out drinking sodas. I exercise at home in spare time. Sometimes just through commercial breaks if I am watching a favorite show. I also joined the Y. I was eating out so much and I figured that if I could spend the money to eat out I should spend it to go to they Y. If I pay for it it makes me want to be sure and go because I don't want to waste money. Small steps, one day at a time. Good luck and never, never, never give up. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAPT_BUTTERFLY 3/7/2014 12:43PM

    I agree with Sept123. You are still here and that is what makes all the difference in the end. I myself have been hovering in a 3 lb lose and gain cycle for the last 6 weeks at least. I was down mid week and i'm back up again today when I weighed in. Sometimes the cycle can feel like it's never ending, but you just have to pick yourself back up and begin again. If you can't shop right now for healthier options then focus on your water for a week or so, and track everything. You can stay within your limit with what you have on hand, it just might take some real planning to make sure that you are staying within your range.

Keep it up, you can handle this. just coming back on here and voicing your issues is a sure sign that you are ready and willing to make this work!

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SEPT124 3/7/2014 12:01PM

    First thing, don't be so hard on yourself. You are here on SP, so you haven't given up on yourself. You are still trying. I've been where you are now. It's a difficult path to be on, but you can change course and get on another path. You need to believe in yourself. Stop thinking negatively. I'm guilty of this, and in fact, that was the point of my last blog. Think positive: I am going to do this, I can succeed. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are worth it. And then just take it one day at a time. Concentrate on tracking your food and making sure you stay within calorie range. Then concentrate on making sure you are making smart food choices. Don't try to do it all at once. One day at a time; one change at a time. You will get there! Believe in yourself.

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