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I'm Possible!


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Friday, March 07, 2014

Today I arrived at a huge milestone in terms of my weight management--that coveted two-year mark when my odds of regain go from as high as 98% all the way down to 50%. But this day means much more to me than statistics can ever represent. It represents the renewed sense of hope, joy and happiness I feel as a result of finally achieving what I had previously thought was unachievable.

I had been thinking about what I wanted to write about to celebrate this milestone for quite some time and asked friends and family members to dig up some old photos of me that I could use for this blog. Back when I was at my heaviest, I absolutely detested having my picture taken and I don't have many "before" shots. So few, in fact, that when my mom sent me this one, I was floored:


(I'm the one on the right!)

Was that really me? I barely recognized myself and couldn't believe I used to look like that. The photo is from late 2001 when I was at (or very close to) my all-time highest weight. In the 12+ years that have passed since that photo, I've undergone much more than just a physical change and my journey has been far from a straight shot from there to where I am now. I lost 115 pounds in 2002-2003 only to regain 95 of them by 2010. And even though I wasn't at my heaviest when I got started again in early 2010, the blow to my self-esteem that came from regaining all that weight was huge. I thought I was destined to be obese for the rest of my life and that no amount of dieting or dedication could change that destiny. Yet for some reason, I still decided to give it a go anyway.

Fast forward four years to now. Not only did I manage to lose the weight I wanted to, but I've also been able to keep it off for two years. (For those of you who are into numbers and serendipity, I joined SparkPeople on March 7, 2010, reached my goal on March 7, 2012 and am celebrating two years of maintenance today, March 7, 2014--kind of neat, right?) But what's even more important than the weight I've shed is the fact that I've reclaimed my life. The girl in that old photo did not have a high self-esteem. She slept all the time, had little energy and her size physically held her back from enjoying many of the things a young person should be able to do without a problem. If affected her relationships with other people and also her relationship with herself. I'm writing about myself in the third person, because I feel like that girl is not me anymore and not just in a physical sense. From a low point with little hope, I've slowly, but surely been able to rebuild my shattered confidence as I lost the weight and kept it off. That sense of confidence comes from achieving what I once thought was an unachievable dream and makes me feel like there's little that life can throw my way that I can't handle. Having weathered quite a few challenges, especially in the past year, I've come to appreciate just how tough and resilient I am. It hasn't been easy work and those were skills were not ingrained in me from the start--I had to develop them, be prepared to fail and learn to pick myself up time after time so I'd have the resilience I needed to help me cut through the rough waters when times got tough and feelings of self-doubt started to gnaw away at me.

So as I look back at pictures of where I've been over the course of my life, I can proudly say that not only am I at my healthiest and happiest, but I've also developed a kind of coat of armor that I think will serve me well as I forge ahead. I am strong, I am tough and there's no going back. This journey and where I stand today has been worth every sacrifice I've made, every day I cursed having to exercise when I just wanted to stay in bed and every rough patch I've slogged my way through when practically every ounce of me wanted to chuck it all in and dive headfirst into a box of cookies.

If you're just starting out and are filled with doubt and trepidation, please don't give up hope, even if you've struggled your whole life as I had.



Getting to the root causes of our over-reliance on food as a coping mechanism is not an easy process. I'm not going to lie--it's been very, very hard for me at times--but it is one that can be tackled with patience, persistence, honest introspection, consistency, gentleness with yourself and your slip ups and increasing levels of resilience, all skills that CAN be developed.

As the beautiful Audrey Hepburn once said, "Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm possible'!" Successful weight loss and maintenance are possible. And so am I and so are you.



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TERRIJ7 6/30/2014 10:57AM

    You are lovely--Congrats on your milestones!

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WHITEANGEL4 6/19/2014 11:41PM

    Great going. Making your goal and maintaining it for 2 years is fntstic

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GRAMPIAN 6/4/2014 5:59AM

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VTRICIA 4/24/2014 1:19PM

    I just gleaned from something else you said that you'd hit 2 years! Great job!

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BOPPY_ 4/17/2014 5:20PM

    Oltretutto!

(Hope I got that translation right.)

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EJB2801 3/11/2014 10:48PM

    Thanks for sharing the truth that changing was very, very hard. Also that you did it, even though it seemed impossible at the outset. That is so encouraging!!
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KAIAHCOMP 3/11/2014 9:18PM

    Thanks for the statistic about "that coveted two-year mark when my odds of regain go from as high as 98% all the way down to 50%". I hadn't heard that before and will certainly keep that in mind as I hopefully reach my goal in a few weeks. I've lost and gained so many times, I plan this to be a final life style change as long as I live. (Which, honestly, won't be too long since I'm 78 years old - but feel 34)

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JRRING 3/11/2014 6:22PM

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MRSRIGS1 3/11/2014 5:32PM

    YOU are so inspirational! You look great! emoticon

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BOBCATGIRL76 3/11/2014 12:04PM

    You are simply wonderful. I hope to reach my goal this year and be as successful as you are with maintenance.


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CARINEVE 3/11/2014 7:52AM

    That is such a terrific blog, what a wonderful inspiration you are!

I have been involved in a healthy life style for about a year now, and I am near the point I will need to start maintaining and I am a bit anxious about it.
I have lost and gained the same 40 pounds a few times in the past, and I don't want to end up where I was before. You show that it can be done.
Perhaps I can write a similar blog two years from now, I really hope so.

Carine

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RUDITUDI2000 3/9/2014 11:58PM

    What a transformation! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KMRJPR 3/9/2014 11:35PM

    An amazing transformation and journey. Good for you!

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PREACHERLADY565 3/9/2014 10:38PM

  Keep up the GREAT work - You are FABULOUS!

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AMCAN262 3/9/2014 8:46PM

    Beautiful! You are an inspiration to me. Thank for sharing, the journey has just begun.

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SLENDERELLA61 3/9/2014 7:44PM

    Beautiful! And so deserving of a Popular Blog Award. Well done. Very well done. -Marsha

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JYOUNG871 3/9/2014 7:27PM

    great job, great journey.

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SMCDONALD624 3/9/2014 6:55PM

    Congratulations! Thanks for sharing your story! Very inspirational!

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OCEANWIDE 3/9/2014 4:30PM

    Thank you very much for sharing a bit of your story with us, you really inspired me !
Happy anniversary I guess, and have a lovely day !

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TAGSUIT2 3/9/2014 3:48PM

    WOOOOOOOOOOW is all I can say because you look marvelous. I needed that I can and I will attitude. You are right when you say it's hard work and that it is. It's not as easy as they make it out to be. Thanks you for helping to open my eyes. emoticon emoticon

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MAMA_CD 3/9/2014 3:19PM

    emoticon what an inspiration for everyone to know that it's possible to lose and keep it off. emoticon

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GIRLINMOTION 3/9/2014 2:31PM

    Audrey said it well.

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SUSIEMT 3/9/2014 1:46PM

    TinaJane! Great blog! Thank you for sharing some of your story! Congrats on your two year Maintenance Anniversary!! Woo Hoo to you! Keep it up!

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MALIBUGIRL0310 3/9/2014 12:41PM

    What an inspiration! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LYNNIERN 3/9/2014 12:34PM

    Thank you so much for sharing your story and Congratulations on being a great statistic!

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ONTHEPATH2 3/9/2014 11:03AM

    Thanks for the inspiration! You look amazing! I am glad that you shared about losing a significant amount of weight, regaining it and losing it again - that is where I am in this process! Yes, I AM possible!!! Congrats on keeping your focus and continuing to change your life. emoticon

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 3/9/2014 10:10AM

    You look fantastic

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BOILHAM 3/9/2014 7:56AM

    Great story. It takes real grit to accomplish your goal and maintain like that.

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PRESBESS 3/9/2014 3:26AM

    Outstanding Tina! Keep up the good work.
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KONRAD695 3/8/2014 11:13PM

    If it is possible to love someone for who they are and who they've become- Then I'm In! emoticon emoticon

What you have been through, and where you come from is just amazing. emoticon

I have mountains of respect for you, immense gratitude for what you gave me, and am so so Happy to know you.

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Love, Konrad

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CAROLISCIOUS 3/8/2014 11:00PM

    Congratulations!
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JULIA1154 3/8/2014 10:50PM

  Congratulations on hitting a true milestone - and on all you've learned on your journey. I'm sure you'll put it to great use.

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AJB121299 3/8/2014 10:42PM

    kudos

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CHARTHESTAR 3/8/2014 9:58PM

    well said!

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MJEFFERSON23 3/8/2014 8:43PM

  emoticon I an't wait until I get there!

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SLLYONS51 3/8/2014 6:58PM

  Congratulations! Maintenance is harder for me then losing the weight emoticon

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MIMIDOT 3/8/2014 6:48PM

    Wow! Look at you! You're beautiful! You did it! Congratulations!!

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