Wednesday, March 05, 2014
I am here. Honestly!
Given the chance to explain myself, I suppose I had better.
The last few weeks (round about, I haven't kept a specific track) I have discovered this very good, happy feeling. It's slightly alien to me, but it feels like a recipe of determination, contentment and visualisation of a better me...and I'm enjoying every minute of it.
I'm not saying that I never have moments where I could happily eat my body weight in chocolate ice-cream. But I think I may have found the mix of things that work for me, and I can actually see myself finishing the weight loss part of my journey, and moving into the long awaited and much coveted maintenance-phase.
My main concern is that it is a use it or lose it feeling. That pretty soon I'll look round and all this drive may have been frittered away, so I'm determined to keep going. This means that a lot of the time, I am using my not-enough-hours-in-the-day for working on different goals-weight, work, home...the possibilities are endless. But it does mean that, sadly, I have cut back my Random-Spark-Surfing quite a bit. I still Log In often, track things, have a peek on message boards and message people (because you really can't do without support, and I don't want to try!), but I'm trying very hard not to rely on Sparkpeople to the point that I can't do anything or make decisions without checking the facts and tracking first. But for everyone who asked where I was, or anyone who thought I had faded away, I can only say Thank You so much for caring, and I promise I am still here.
I haven't gone...far from it. I have just cut back on the amount of time I spend typing "Today I'm going to do this to achieve my goals" and dedicated more time to ACTUALLY doing things to achieve them.