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Rough patch

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

and I will not lie....I even read my last blog about "who takes care of you" and it just goes to show that nobody is perfect when it comes to that.

This week has been a rough one (and it's only Wednesday)... emotionally draining too. Goes to show how much you are affected by outside energy because you actually care about people, even if they really don't give a hoot about you...or even like you.

emoticon Meh...moving on. It's all part of the game, I guess.

Anyway - yesterday was a "didn't get to eat lunch at all" day...and towards the end of the day...I almost passed out. No joke. My coworker looked at me and was like "you've got to be kidding right?" as I stopped everything and shoved an orange into my face like my life depended on it. And while on the run, I shoved another in.

Well, on the way home, my bag of chips from lunch was gone by the time I hit the main highway....and then I got home, consumed a glass of wine with a mishmash dinner and was ready to pass out from exhaustion...but alas, a meeting was being held at my house. From which I excused myself to babysit all of the children in my family room. Yes, indeed... a lovely day for sure.

When I see these kinds of days, I try to rethink how I could have done things differently...a complete re-hash of things that are now basically in the past, but some continue on into the future...and then the worrying starts in my head and I lose sleep.

I try to think about happy thoughts, of good things, but sometimes they are elusive. Worry wins.

Which is ironic for this week because the priest at church did his homily about worrying just this past Sunday and I actually paid attention and laughed to myself that this was so about me!!!

And then I look at my health coaching course (which I am 5 weeks behind in btw) and a lot of it has to do with finding joy and self care, movement and eating right...and all good things, but sometimes.......those things can seem very far away when you are in the middle of a rough patch. Right? Sure....totally right.

So what do you do about it?

Well.... hellllllloooooo.... here I am blogging about it! When push comes to shove, sometimes, you have to vent what really is at the root of the matter. I worry. I am a worrier. I care too much I guess....maybe I have to care less in some situations. Kinda hard for a Pisces to do, but I will try ...and not ruin my karma in the meantime.

And here's another thing - WINTER SUCKS! GO AWAY ALREADY!!!!!!!!

I absolutely - positively - cannot stand being trapped in buildings!!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

I hate that my basement is a meatlocker and I cannot exercise like normal.

Is this an excuse - sorta kinda....but now that I want to exercise - I am so cold all the time, the last thing I want to do is exercise in my meatlocker basement!!!

I want sun.
I want warmth.
I was a warm breeze.
I want green grass and birds.
I want to put away the shovels and winter gear.
I want to take a walk with my kids after dinner.
I want to not have to keep the heat just above artic in my house in order to get warm because heating costs so much!

All in due time....right? Right.

For some reason...it feels like Groundhog day - the movie.... where the day repeats over and over and over again.

OK - hopefully this rough patch ends with this beeotch blog of mine.
Thanks for listening Sparkfriends!!


As Disney World employee's say: "Have a magical day!"
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DWEXCEL 4/27/2014 7:22AM

    Boy, am I glad I stopped by and read through your blogs today! You always know how to say exactly what I'm thinking and feeling, and I love the way you analyze and talk yourself through these tough times. As someone else said, you really capture all of our voices in a great witty writing way.

I've missed you Girl! I've had issues of my own, but am making myself get back to serious business here.

I will be keeping track!

Love ya!
Donna

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DAPPLE3 3/6/2014 5:53AM

    Everytime I read one of your blogs, I smile at how accurate and genuine you are. You may think that things are rough but you don't realize how bright and cheerful you help others with your whit (sp?)and humour!. The fact that you can voice how we all feel and still keep us (and yourself) smiling is a true testament to your good nature and loving way.

Way to go ANNIE... Once again you have managed to keep me going another step, another day ..... my rough patch just came to an end too..... Thanks for continuing to share your thoughts :)
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ANNIEONLI 3/5/2014 9:19PM

    Thanks Sparkfriends!!!!! Love you guys!

I have to honestly say that SUNSHINE!! emoticon emoticon came in the way of a nice quiet smooth day that ended with a sushi dinner with my BFF.... totally what the doctor ordered!!! Thanks Universe!!! I needed that!

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IAMLION 3/5/2014 3:18PM

    emoticon You are having a rough patch indeed! I know I complain about the cold but y'all really have it rough!! Hang in there girlie!!! emoticon

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DALID414 3/5/2014 11:07AM

    Magical is SO the kind of day I need!
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KANOE10 3/5/2014 8:14AM

    I am the same way. I am tired of exercising in my basement and want to be outside. I am also tired of the cold and dark days. I hope Spring comes soon for all of us.

Rough Patches are simply hard. I tend to be a worrier also..especially about my kids. You are right that all of our positive tools of self care and joy can seem far away during these periods.

I hope you find the sunshine in your life again and have a better day today.

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NEW_PARADIGM 3/5/2014 7:40AM

    So there, too. It so totally helps to get air around things to put them in proportion and be able to move on. You Rock!

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CHERYLHURT 3/5/2014 6:13AM

  I can so relate. Hurry up spring!

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SHRINKINGSHERI 3/5/2014 5:52AM

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