Monday, March 03, 2014
So, these last couple of weeks (okay, more like three or four) I've been having some stomach pains nausea, and in particular, pain on my right-hand side just below my rib cage.
Because I FINALLY got health care, I decided to go to the doctor so he could check it out, and also so I could get some blood work done and make sure that everything was still fine. It had been over a year since I had gotten any kind of physical, so it was necessary, especially with the recent weight gain, to check my blood.
My doctor checked out my side, and referred me to the hospital to have an ultra sound. I couldn't schedule one for last Friday, so I had to go in this morning. He suspected it was a problem with my gallbladder.
He also prescribed something for my anxiety, which I won't really know if that will work for a couple of weeks. I've never actually taken any medications for that, but we'll see how those go. It's the lowest possible dose, so I'm not too worried about it.
I went in this morning for my ultra sound, and while she was doing it, I noticed that there was this weird little lumpy thing. Around noon I received a call from the doctor. He confirmed my fear. I have a gall stone the size of a grape. He said that we could do two things: I could go speak with a surgeon to talk about getting my gall bladder removed, or I could change my diet for about 3 months and see if the symptoms go away-unfortunately, the stone will not shrink, nor can it be taken care of with medication.
I immediately said that I didn't want to pursue any kind of surgery, and he agreed because there's a risk there (as with any kind of surgery) and since I'm so young, and there's only one and it's not really obstructing anything, he agreed to let me just change my diet for about 3 months, and then schedule another appointment.
I guess there's no way to remove them except through surgery, in which the entire gallbladder would be removed. There is no medication.
I also got word on my blood work. Everything else was fine. My blood sugar levels were normal, I had no problems with my thyroid, and he cleared me to work out at maximum-which I'm very pleased with.
It's interesting. I knew that there would come a day when I could no longer eat such terrible crap. I knew that "moderation" was just a lie, and so long as the addictive chemicals were inside my food, I was going to keep coming back, and I was going to struggle with binge eating. At least I don't have a thyroid problem or diabetes. Those were what I was REALLY worried about. Sure, the pain sucks, but once my body gets used to this new low-to-no fat diet, I'm sure the symptoms will calm down. Even if they don't and if I have to get my gallbladder removed, I'll have to eat like that for the rest of my life.
This is really for the best. I'm not saying that I'm HAPPY this happened, but it was just the kick in the butt I needed to really get me back into this again. Those foods will not be missed. Those foods are not welcome in my body anymore.
As far as school goes, we just started week 9. I'm so excited and nervous because I have so much to do and so little time to do it. I just have to sit down and do it. I know that I'll be able to accomplish it.
Adam got his score back from LSAC. It wasn't very good. He said he had changed his mind about wanting to do law school, and that also makes it easier because we'll be looking for work, and I know that I need to look here in Oregon, and not worry about re-locating to another state. I'm happy that we at least have a solid plan. I'm excited for us. We're both just going to look for work, and take some time off, pay some of our debts, and see what we really want to do for graduate school.
I'm thinking about applying for the MSW program after all and becoming a licensed clinical social worker. That's still something that I feel I'd be VERY good at. I just have to take some time off and get experience before the master's program at Portland State University will take me. I'm so excited for us! This will also give us a chance to save up a little bit to maybe get married-finally after 7 years!
I'm just even more excited about graduating. I love the thought of getting to know myself again and to get back into my own non-school-related hobbies, and read some books for fun. I want to get healthy again and maybe take some cooking classes or something.
This project regarding organic farming has really taught me a lot about how important it is not only to eat healthy, but to choose organic as often as possible. I'm SO excited to graduate, and I'm SO excited to see where our lives take us!