Sunday, March 02, 2014
I read your responses to my last blog and I cried as I read each entry. It really touched me. In fact, that's why I write this blog. I had no idea how many people dealt with my kind of problem before. I felt so alone. I am keeping the fact that I'm in therapy from everyone except my husband. How can I tell? When they are the cause. I feel so guilty feeling traumatized from their actions.. it's a new level of messed up.
You guys, I've been saying it for like 6 months but I seriously need a vacation. Not like I'm too stressed or I just need one. I might die. She scared me. She said the way my stress levels are going that I might die in 10 years. At 35. I can't do that.
I have gotten connected to a movie recently. I was lost and didn't care what we watched as I ate my fast food but I found a gem. Frozen is the movie. There is one song that touched me so deeply I watch it many times each day. Every word hits me home. I have had to hide so much of me each day and I want to let go. I just hope I can.