Sunday, March 02, 2014
I've decided to take a break from everything for a while. I'm not giving up. Quite the contrary. I have come to the realization that I have to do something different with my life. I have to figure out how to go in a different direction, and I don't feel like I can change my life if I keep doing the same things I always do (example: internet, tv, sitting around, hiding out at home, etc.) I'm not exactly sure what I need or want right now, or for the future...I just know I need to spend some time reflecting, working through my pain and grief, and developing some new habits. Emotionally, I'm at the point where I can barely get out of bed. I am absolutely exhausted ALL the time, no matter how much sleep I get. I'm just not at all healthy...mentally or physically...and I have to change this. I just need to take a break from my usual distractions. I need a mind-body-soul detox. I have no clue how to even begin, but I think it will come in time. I'm probably just rambling at this point. All I know is that I don't feel at all well, mentally or physically...and I need to change this and I want to change this. Honestly, I'm so tired, I don't "want" to, but of course I really do. I just feel like I'm wasting away. I have to make changes in my life.
I need to give myself LIFE.