Sunday, March 02, 2014
The last few days of February, although not entirely happy, were significant in setting the stage for March. My son was 41, damn I feel old, weather still miserable at -4 windchill today, ate well but set the high end of limits 2 days in a row, the same 2 days that, in my old life would have been 4000 calorie and bourbon binges. More snowfall and CE kept me from church, could not make it out the 350 ft driveway. At the center of my anxiety, is the friendship I have with a gentleman that involves compromises on my part...ones that I am not prepared to accept. After heart-rendering soul searching, i have walked away from all but friendship. The friendship will remain because of genuine affection. Here again, in another life, I would have settled. It is quite amazing how the continuing weight loss has strengthened my resolve, my self worth, personal confidence. Life is an amazing path, for certain, and I look forward to the Month of March, weather changing, planting seeds, being outside in the sun, Opening the camp in PA, St.Patricks Day,not Irish but traditionally my Daddy's birthday, RIP, know we will never forget you, Daylight savings Time, and Easter, trout fishing season. I am optimistic about my contained weight loss and powering toward minus 200, about 16 pounds to go, and just inching forward.