Thursday, February 27, 2014
So I did my C25K training today, even though I didn't feel like it so much. And you know what? I feel better now that I've done it. I did manage to start to slip on one of the last ice patches on the driveway today, so my hip is a little sore, but I wasn't going to let that turn into an excuse to not exercise. I do think that the exercise has helped it feel a little better actually.
I had Wendy's for lunch today. I felt like treating the kids to lunch out since its a rare occasion that we do it. I did really good though. I parked a few minutes to look up their menu and nutrition info on my phone before I ordered. I went with the grilled chicken wrap and a sour cream and chive baked potato. I managed to stay under 600 calories for lunch with that! Yes, I could have had a salad instead, but when I want fast food, I don't usually want a salad, so I satisfied my craving without going crazy. And besides, Wendy's baked potatoes are really good!
I've been trying to cut back more and more on my sodium, and for that reason, I didn't ask for salt for my potato today. It still tasted really good without the salt. I also have been trying to use less when cooking. I'm not always very good at this, but I'm getting better.
My resolve to get rid of this weight is really strong this time around. I can't explain it, but this time definitely feels different, like it will indeed be the last time I battle this much weight. I know I can do it too. I've lost 60 lbs before, so I KNOW I am capable. And I am really determined to stick to this and make these healthy changes permanent. There's nothing I want more right now than to lose the weight, get healthy, and maintain a healthy and active lifestyle. Its funny too. I was watching Nicole Curtis today while running and thought to myself “I bet she's a runner.” A few scenes later, they showed her going for a run! Lol! I'd love to look like her, but even if I don't get quite the same kind of slender body she has, I will be happy to have gotten to a healthy weight. I really look forward to this whole process of reinventing myself. That's really what it is, isn't it, after all? Weight loss is so much about breaking old habits and creating new ones. Its about overcoming setbacks and fears. So really, it is reinventing ourselves. I look forward to finally becoming the person who doesn't hide behind her fat, shy, and unsure of herself. I want to be confident and strong. I want to be a good role model for my kids. And you know what I've figured out? Only I can do it. No one else can make me into the person I want to be. The responsibility lies on me. And dang it! I'M DOING IT!! No one can stop me!