Thursday, February 27, 2014
I've fallen away from the plan already. I've been really sporadic in my tracking over the last two weeks. I was still eating fairly well and my weight has been between 253 and 256. It's good that I haven't gained, but that means that in the whole month of February I've lost about one pound. Its so depressing to me that I have so little to show for the restraint that I've shown (most of the time).
I'm a little depressed that I can't get to the gym to work out. Emmy has really done poorly in the child watch and I feel like a bad parent for prioritizing my desire to work out for an hour over her discomfort in being with strangers. I know she'll grow out of it or get used to people eventually, but in the mean time I feel like I can't use the gym when the hubs isn't home to watch her. Even then I don't get to the gym because it doesn't fit into the schedule of other things we need to take care of on his days off. I'm really frustrated that what I need and want (exercise) is consistently at the bottom of the important pile.
I'm so over winter and snow. If it was at least nice out I could walk with her in the stroller but that probably won't happen for another month or so. I feel like I'm all full of excuses.