Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Today I got on the scale. Today is Wednesday. I have been following the Sparkpeople suggested diet, and staying within my calorie range. I exercise for 30-60 minutes 2-5x a week. Today I got on the scale. Today is Wednesday. My weigh in day is Friday. I started my period today. I weighed myself because I thought I was doing good, and I needed the motivation to continue to stick to the diet, stick to the exercise. Well, I did not lose weight. I gained weight. This has sent me into a tailspin. All logic says I should be losing. I work from home now, and I rarely eat out, rarely eat fast food, and that was a year ago I made these changes. I gained about 10 or 15lbs over the holidays, and I just can't seem to get the weight off. I tell my mom, and she tries to be helpful by suggesting Wheat free diet and eliminating milk. I tell my husband and he suggests I go on Medifast again. I know they are trying to help. But why can't I lose the weight they old fashioned way? Calories in, calories out. I am a nurse, I know physiology, I know about health. It may be I am bloated from my period, but my logical brain doesn't care. It looks at the last year of not eating out, of all the changes I made, and says, WTH???? The weight should be falling off! But it doesn't. It is stuck on me like glue. I am doing all the hard work, so why no results? Then I start to wonder, could it be my thyroid levels (I have had a complete thyroidectomy due to goiter), so I get that checked, and per the doctor my levels are fine. Then I start to wonder, do I have something else going on, should I avoid gluten, should I go to the doctor and be checked for diabetes? But you know what, I am a nurse and I avoid the doctor at all costs, unless I am really miserable or for preventative stuff. And besides some dull abdominal pain and pain with pressure on my abdomen, I feel fine. That might just be anxiety or from working out.
Well, the plan is to weigh myself on Friday. I will TRY not to weigh myself every day, but I want to see that scale drop, that would be such wonderful motivation. But then, that can obviously backfire in a big way. Because after I weighed myself this morning, I put on my workout gear to do my 1 hour workout in the living room, I put the DVD in the player, I looked and my shoes, and I thought, why am I doing this?? And I went back to BED! If I am working so hard, eating right and exercising, which is not easy, and not getting any movement on that scale, why am I doing this? I know, it's because of my health, and I will continue, for my health. But WHY am I not losing weight??? I am doing everything right.