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Next Round of Fasting


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

It's been a little while since I've blogged. I usually blog every day but I got super busy and had nothing positive to say. I've now gained a total of 10 lbs since I made goal in mid-December. I feel so freaking gross right now. Bloated, tired, achy, ugh. emoticon I should have stopped when I hit 140 but I didn't because I suck. Now I'm in the 145 region. My pants are now getting tight and I'm so bloated I can't wear half of my shirts. My bra's barely fit. It's a complete mess.

I'm starting another round of fasting today (well, I already started) and will go until my birthday on March 18 and then see how much progress I make. I would prefer to go until I hit 130 to give myself some leeway.

I drank wine, I ate maybe 10 pizzas in the last month, burgers and fries on a regular basis, cake several times, nachos, pasta on several occasions, the eggs benedict. I have so much crap inside me that I feel like crap. Total crap. emoticon emoticon emoticon I stopped exercising a few weeks ago. All I've been doing is going to work, coming home and drinking, eating fast food or to go from a restaurant, and playing video games. I also had several binge watching marathons in Netflix.

Gotta pick myself up and keep on going. My next therapy appointment is tomorrow. I am getting fingerprinted Thursday as the next step for citizenship. Things have been so stressful at work I take a sedative on a daily basis. My clumsiness has gotten worse. I am covered in bruises. Everything in general just hurts, physically and mentally.

The detox will occur this week. Fun times. emoticon

EDIT: When I say fast, I mean going back on the 5&1 Plan for Medifast.
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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
KNLILLA 2/27/2014 10:21PM

    Wow, the second i read about your weight going back up I though of a video I once watched on TED.com, I don't know if you've heard of the website, you can watch a lot of speeches by scientists and professionals in their field, humanitarians, researchers, etc. anyway, here's the link:

http://new.ted.com/tal
ks/sandra_aamodt_why_dieting_do
esn_t_usually_work

Now the title is "Why dieting doesn't usually work", but don't worry, the woman's (she's a neuroscientist) not trying to tell us to stop trying to lose weight even if we're...like...obese, it just gives a really good insight into this thing, something that I haven't read about on SparkPeople before. The beginning of the speech is a bit boring, but try to get through that, it gets better. Anyway, I hope you'll find it useful.

On an other note, I hope the therapist works out for you, give it time, it's sooo worth it, and not taking pills is sooo worth it either. I went to a therapist for a year and a half and it helped me get through some internal struggles that I just couldn't let go by myself. It was money, time and energy well spent for me, and I hope it will be the same for you.

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DIETROCKSTAR 2/26/2014 12:44AM

    I was wondering what happened to you. It seemed that everyone disappeared off this place. I just thought everyone was out exercising and living a life and too busy to post. emoticon

Now I know when people are not on here they are eating pizza and who knows what else.

Get some focus. You can get back on this horse. It isn't how many times you fall off. It is how many times you get back on!

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FERRETGIRL28 2/25/2014 5:04PM

    Things have not been going so well with my eating either. I blame winter mostly....it adds to my depression, makes me want to sleep all the time, makes it super hard to exercise or get to the gym, etc. etc.

Hopefully going back to Medifast eating will help you feel lighter & less bloated soon.

Good luck with therapy tomorrow.
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NIMIRRA137 2/25/2014 12:20PM

    Sounds like it has been a rough few weeks! I'm sorry you've gained and you've been eating so much. When you say you're starting a round of fasting, do you mean your medi-fast or fasting as in starving? Don't starve yourself but definitely watch your portions and what you're eating.

I've been struggling a lot lately too. I had burgers and fries yesterday, pizza last week. It's rough. Good luck with your therapy appointment. I know you haven't gone often yet but have you talked to her about your eating yet?



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JES_VARNER 2/25/2014 12:17PM

    Sounds like it's been pretty rough going lately! I hope your therapy appointments help you out & that things settle down for you!

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WHITNEYLD 2/25/2014 12:05PM

    Hope you feel better. I am sorry to hear it has been rough. What kind of fast?

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