Tuesday, February 25, 2014
It's been a little while since I've blogged. I usually blog every day but I got super busy and had nothing positive to say. I've now gained a total of 10 lbs since I made goal in mid-December. I feel so freaking gross right now. Bloated, tired, achy, ugh.
I should have stopped when I hit 140 but I didn't because I suck. Now I'm in the 145 region. My pants are now getting tight and I'm so bloated I can't wear half of my shirts. My bra's barely fit. It's a complete mess.
I'm starting another round of fasting today (well, I already started) and will go until my birthday on March 18 and then see how much progress I make. I would prefer to go until I hit 130 to give myself some leeway.
I drank wine, I ate maybe 10 pizzas in the last month, burgers and fries on a regular basis, cake several times, nachos, pasta on several occasions, the eggs benedict. I have so much crap inside me that I feel like crap. Total crap.
I stopped exercising a few weeks ago. All I've been doing is going to work, coming home and drinking, eating fast food or to go from a restaurant, and playing video games. I also had several binge watching marathons in Netflix.
Gotta pick myself up and keep on going. My next therapy appointment is tomorrow. I am getting fingerprinted Thursday as the next step for citizenship. Things have been so stressful at work I take a sedative on a daily basis. My clumsiness has gotten worse. I am covered in bruises. Everything in general just hurts, physically and mentally.
The detox will occur this week. Fun times.
EDIT: When I say fast, I mean going back on the 5&1 Plan for Medifast.