Monday, February 24, 2014
What has stayed the same? What has changed?
My SMART Goal is to be at 299 by August 15th. That has not changed.
What has changed is my approximate numbers a month because I just don't know.
A few weeks ago I lost 17 lbs in 2 weeks. Then the scale went up 10lbs in a few days (it is impossible for me to gain that much weight with what I'm eating and the surgery) so I know I'm retaining. But why?
Now, the scale is starting to slowly creep back down to where I was before and I know I'll start losing again. This in between time is frustrating because thoughts keep going through my head like:
Did the surgery work?
What if I gain it all back?
Why keep being so diligent if it doesn't mean anything?
BUT...I am staying diligent. I am on Spark every day. I track everything. I am drinking water. I am exercising (need to do more), and I am very conscious of what is going in my mouth.
The blessing for me is that I have had the surgery. This doesn't let me get too out of control, especially when I am being so mindful.
Today two people told me I look great. One told me I keep shrinking. So maybe other people are seeing it and I'm just not...right now. That's okay. Perseverance is one thing I do have. Especially now. This is just temporary. Like all plateaus, they do come to an end sometime.