I sure needed this article..... www.sparkpeople.com/reso
My emotions are going all over the place lately. Winter blahs, grief, hormones, and weight gain have all taken a toll on me this winter.
I lose 1 lbs, gain 1 lbs, lose 1, gain 2, repeat. For months now, meaning a very slow weight gain and I don't like how I look and feel once again.
I try to stay positive---looking at all the weight I have kept off - nearly 50! And all the health progress I've made---(see a previous blog).
I am exercising like I haven't been able to do in over 15 years!! And yet.....
I am making much better, healthier food choices than EVER! And yet.....
Some days I feel like giving up....it is so hard to eat healthy in this house. Desserts, chips, ice cream, soda pop, Little Debbie cakes, pasta, pasta, pasta, chocolate, chocolate, chocolate, beef 4-5x week abound. I feel doomed to weigh 180lbs until the kids (age 22 and 17) leave home. If I don't buy it, they do. I do not enjoy cooking, so I refuse to cook 2 separate meals for every meal lunch and supper.
I try to change up my meals a bit so they are healthier choices.....baked potato with chili sauce instead of hotdog, bun, and chili sauce or salad with tuna mixed with avacado instead of the Kraft mac -n-cheese and tuna, salads, salads, and more salads while everyone else has potatoes, pasta, and bread but it doesn't seem to be enough to keep the weight from slowing coming back.
I had lost 65 lbs. I was at 162. I am now fighting to keep it at 180. ugh.
I've even joined a challenge team to see if competition and accountability would help. Sadly, for my wonderful teammates, NO. (so very sorry WRJ&G team mates!)
I am so much more tired.
I am more achy.
I am more sad.
I am more fat.
I just don't understand how to live my family's life and stay thinner.
Where did my determination and will power go?????????????
I did it before with the same foods in this house.
Where is that determination I had before?
I am a VERY strong-willed person....why am I not applying it to the foods I put in my mouth?