Saturday, February 22, 2014
As usual, my depressions come and go. I've had a week off work and, for most of it, I've had the freedom to workout and done so. Yesterday and today I've been sick. Stupid respiratory virus (thank you older child o' mine). Anyway, I'm sticking with strength training today as my chest is full of gunk. If it were just my head... Oh well.
At least hubby finally put my Coach Nicole DVD onto the server so I can watch it through the Apple TV. My point of pride for the week was when it WASN'T on the server, I couldn't get to YouTube and I couldn't make the DVD player work. Rather than use the excuse, I hooked up my laptop to power right in front of the TV (the best place as far as having space to exercise while still being able to see the video) and streamed a couple Spark Coach Nicole videos through there.
I am trying to figure out how to get my work life balanced (Special Ed aid being expected by the head teacher to pick up said teacher's slack in the classroom but said teacher being chided by Curriculum Director for using me this way but me having to work with both of them...and not getting full IEPs on my students in a timely manner...etc. etc. etc...) and make some sort of personal life that isn't completely wrapped around my 9 year old. I don't have a social network here. I don't have a network of friends nor do I have activities I regularly do here. None of the easy go-tos of the city - zoos, museums, etc. Don't get me wrong, we have a couple of museums, good ones. But I can only go so often and after you've seen them a few times...
I need to build myself a life though. I want to get back into running but I'm not sure how to get regular childcare going (personality-wise, the 9 year old is not leave-home-alone safe yet) so I can. I'm in crappy shape right now but the kid still can't go as long as I can eight now, partly because she has no desire to. I do need to get her bicycle fixed up since you really can't keep up in a neighborhood where neighbors can be 1/4 mile away without wheels... I wish I knew what I was doing when it came to fixing it up though.
I'm trying to schedule more times to go roller skating with Mom and the kid but the apathy that comes with the regular depressions is not helping there. I would like to get back into singing again but it's not the same singing alone and there aren't local choirs that sing the kind of music I like to sing that meet and perform on days/times I'm free. I know. Excuses excuses. Hey, I never said I was doing well at the whole trying bit. I have a lot of work left to do both on me and on my life. If I were doing well at it, there wouldn't be so many, "I need to" and "I'm trying to"s in my blogs.
I know I am motivated by fun workout outfits and I have been finding some fun running shirts online at onemoremile.net/
that I want. I like sleeveless ones best and I've been having a lot of fun looking at the slogans. Here are a couple of my current favorites: